My partner and I had a three week breakup but I think it was a misconception so it felt like it wasn’t really the end but it hurt me like crazy. I don’t know how the depth of this pain is worse than a 3 year one ending. My partner seems to have some kind of bpd too or some abandonment anxiety of some sort.

I didn’t think we would get back but there were factors such as me not eating for a few days and taking green tea for breakfast on an empty stomach ( trying to lose more weight before the holidays) which made me very angry at him for telling me we need to work more on our relationship. I felt so sorry cause and I told him the honest truth and I will stop taking the diet stuff. He seemed sad and said just be myself and we can both see if we can put up with each other.

I don’t want to get into what I did but I was angry on the phone and texts and I saw him and was angry again. Ugh FM that was not necessary even if he wronged me.

I’ve promised myself many times to avoid thinking badly of him cause it will only spiral. I am sad and I don’t want to be this anymore. I need some medication that will make me consistent on a more regular mood not hyper or super moody.

Thanks 🙏