Hello, I have been diagnosed with BPD since I was 18, I am now 30 and I was in an abusive relationship for 4 years, he now has a restraining order and I have full custody of my child, he gets supervised visitation…

I now have a boyfriend, we have been in an on and off relationship for 5 months, I don’t know how to handle a healthy relationship, I am mean and I don’t know how to control myself and break the break up cycle.. he left last night and wants to speak with me today because he says I need boundaries and to stick with my treatment (therapy and Lexapro 10mg daily). I don’t take my medicine because I like drinking wine after work or heavy drinking on the weekends.

but Im tired I need help, how can someone with BPD, PTSD , domestic violence, etc have a healthy relationship and not treat badly my SO when he does nothing to trigger me, he reads about BPD, started going to therapy and I keep bringing him back to my breakup cycle ☹️