I always get obsessed and i love toxic men, the type of men that will lovebomb me until i love them and then hurt me so much after a month or 2, that’s the only way i feel in love with someone. A while back i came out of a toxic relationship, but it was also the longest relationship that i had and i don’t think i’ve ever felt that type of love towards anyone even though he did horrible stuff to me. I’m in a relationship now but he’s very sweet, well mannered and i feel like i can be myself around him, but i don’t know if i love him for sure. But i can’t get out of this because he’s the thing keeping me alive at the moment, why do i do this i just can’t anymore. I also can’t get therapy atm, i don’t know what to do.