I fell in love with my friend who’s still in love with his ex and he has become my fp and it’s been 4 months since I fell for him. I still can’t move on. I’ve been overthinking and it’s so hard because they might all be true. Like how he never cared about me even as a friend, for example. It hurts cause I’ll never get a validation, even as a friend, because I have no right. I also feel like he’s slipping away as a friend because he became distant and I don’t even know what I did. I hate it. Having an fp is already hard, but having someone who isn’t yours as an fp is harder. It’s affecting the way I think about all my relationships. I feel like I have no friends, I feel like everyone hates me. I feel like no one cares anymore. Thoughts are just coming through my mind right now so fast I can’t even process them. My head is all over the place, I just wanna cry and have someone hold me.