I struggle with recognizing myself, and knowing who I am. And then sometimes I see my friends. I'll look at pictures of them. Some of which I hangout with often and talk to often and its like ? Is that my friend ? Do I know them ? Is that what they look like ? Who is that ? Obviously I know who it is. I know it's my friend, I know they're name I know things about them. But there's such a large disconnect. I do this with everyone. Friends, family, myself, even celebrities. Even my memories of people. I'll look back on memories, pictures of places I've been and things I've done and it's like it never happened. I know it happened. There's proof, but it's like I wasn't there. When did that happen ? Was I actually there ? I can have memories of things but sometimes they don't feel like my own. I've become so insanely disconnected and detached from this world and everything in it and my own self and I hate it. I hate it I hate it I hate it i hate it so much. How do I stop being so disconnected. How do I become connected again. If I ever even was I'm not sure I ever was to begin with