That's all I was. A shiny new toy for my FP when we met. He showered me with so much love, more love than I ever knew in my whole life. He planned a whole future with me. Told me I was his person, I was his favorite person. He gave me hope, he took away this emptiness and replaced it with more love than I could even handle and then he took it away. And now I'm left feeling more empty than I was before. I can't give him dopamine hits anymore so of course he hardly talks to me anymore. Of course he doesn't want to call me anymore. It hurts so bad. Why couldn't I have been more than just a hyperfixation. Why can't I be someone he still loves and holds close even if the hyperfixation went away. He told me this. Told me that he still cares about me but the reason he talked to me all the time and planned all that with me was because be was hyperfixated. Like that was supposed to make me feel better. But it made me feel 10x worse. I just wanna scream. I keep flying into rages and my mood swings have been insane since he told me that a few days ago and I'm so tired. And yet I still want to try and be friends with him..I'm so stupid and foolish