I literally cannot seem to form attachments to people, I'm completely detached from my family and my friends. And I do love and care about my friends but if I lost them and I never heard from them it wouldn't phase me. Infact I have a tendency to dip on and disappear on others without a second thought. No matter how much I hangout with people, no matter how much I overshare or no matter how much I hear and listen to peoples trauma and vents. No matter how much we're there for each other I cannot form attachments. Unless it's severe. Like with my ex he managed to slip through the cracks and I became intensely obsessed, and my mental health went straight to the gutter..he was a very good partner. And we broke up for reasons on his end that were out of both of our control. And we ended on very good terms but I am still terribly attached to him. I don't want to let go of it because I already feel so alone being so detached. And if I lost my attachment to him I don't think I'd even feel human anymore. And i'm not sure I'd ever be able to feel connected/attached to anyone ever again, after breaking up with the one person I loved more than the world, that loved me more than anything I don't think my brain would ever allow It again. I wish I could form normal attachments and connections so badly. And I wonder if anyone else has a similar experience?