It's hard. There are times I want to be the worst human being possible. But I know my heart wouldn't be able to handle dealing with the consequences of my wrongful doing. I know this because those mistakes are what haunt me and push me to even more self hatred and eventually suicidal ideation. I know that repeating mistakes is what keeps this cycle going. And when you repeat one mistake, you justify making more. And before you know it, you're hurting someone you love again.

So now I'm Actively Choosing to be a Good Person.

What makes a good person?

A good person understands the evil they are capable of, and actively chooses to do good despite knowing the evil they can so easily choose to be.

Being good is hard. But it is still good.

You are capable of change. You are not hopeless. Remind yourself of the good you have done, even though you wanted to do the bad. We all slip and fall, but you gotta get up and read the Yellow Sign that says "Caution, Wet Floor".

I hope everyone here finds Peace. You got this.