I am constantly wanting the attention of this person. I get jealous whenever they're talking to other people. He's closer to another friend and I feel jealous about that. I always want more attention and one on one quality time between us although that doesn't really happen since we can't meet outside of school (we live far away).

I feel much more sensitive to anything he says and sometimes he says hurtful things (usually in sports he just says I shouldn't bother because I'm so bad). He's not a bad person though, he does ask how I'm doing and he's been generally nice to me over the past two years. We've had just a few bad interactions.

I keep going over all our interactions mentally to try and make a list of negative things so I can logically prove to myself that I shouldn't be with him, but nothing decisive pops up. I hate it when I can't split people into good or bad neatly.

Maybe it's because I'm trying to get my emotional and social needs fulfilled mostly just from him. I'm not that interested in my other friends. There's little diversity in my school. There isn't really anyone I'd be interested in befriending.