I have this trait which is really annoying to me. If someone very close to me expresses an opinion that is different from mine - especially if it's about something minor, like an aesthetic preference -- I will feel extremely compelled to follow their opinion as if it's a rule.

I don't choose to do this and I can't seem to choose to not do it. I think it's really ridiculous, irritating and has real consequences in my life, but I can't stop; it seems to be outside of conscious control.

People don't understand it if I tell them. They think I should be able to stop doing it, but I literally cannot stop. I'm also not a conformist person whatsoever- I don't care at all about conformity. I also have my own aesthetic preferences, I'm not vacuous in that way.

The feeling that their opinion is right and mine wrong, feels to me like a fact, not a feeling. My feelings might actually be against it, but it feels like its true and must be followed. I have to literally struggle to make any other choice - but I do, with much effort, sometimes.

The only thing I can think of is that I used to have BPD. I recovered, and I could no longer be diagnosed with BPD. I'm not emotionally unstable at all, I'm very happy, and have good communication skills.

But I do tend to copy/follow the opinions of someone if they're the closest person to me in my life - like a Favorite Person in BPD. In a way it seems like I still have a Favorite Person even though I'm not reacting to that person in an emotional way like with BPD.

I absolutely hate it and want to stop doing it, but I seem to have no control over it. It's as if there is an iron clad rule in my brain that 'some people are always right' and even if I know I disagree, I have to follow their opinion.

If anyone has any ways they have overcome similar I'd love to hear them. Also if you recovered from BPD and still have FPs... I'm wondering how common that is.