I guess this is it, I've tried so many times. Trying to find a meaningful relationship with a domme/mommy isn't possible. I would say I've had fun but I haven't, I want a relationship. Is that so hard? Am I a crap sub, is it because im not a femme . Am I not worth sticking around for and training? Doing this as a masc lesbian is so disheartening. I've come across nothing but an excuse to abuse people. This community has disappointed and hurt me. People have told they're are great dommes out there but I haven't found any, well I thought I did but she lost interest in me, I guess that's what happens when you take on another two, as the saying goes first in, first out. I just wanted to be a brat and get put in my place, have a relationship. But I guess this is my sign to stop pursuing this side of me and let it die.