Some people describe me as a force of nature. I’m feisty, intelligent and my mind runs on overdrive pretty much constantly. …and I’d really like a break from that, occasionally. The overdrive, I mean. Not the intelligence. ;)

I crave the relief of giving in to someone that knows just the right words to unravel me. Someone that sees the overwhelmed stress underneath my brave exterior. Can you take the lead and help me out? I’m a handful. There’s the brat that you might need to push up against the wall, and there’s the pet that will serve at the beckoning of a hand.

I’m looking for a partner that provides a domestic, safe life – with an underlying sense of spice and hierarchy. Depending on our wishes, the lifestyle can be very noticeable or more subtle.

Some would say this ventures into the territory of ownership or a trophy wife (trophy pet?). But I’m more than just a pretty little plaything. I often get mistaken for a Dom type in the way I present myself. I’m witty and love banter. If you care for personality types, I’m an Aries and ENFP (perhaps INPF?).

But honestly? In private, I’m super shy and thus defensive. I desperately want to submit, but I’m just so embarrassed and scared of the concept of not being in control that I’ll use my wit to talk my way out of basically anything. So I’ll need you to tip my chin up gently and remind me to look at you. …or grab my throat with a measured squeeze if I still try to evade a question.

I might have a smart mouth, but I’ll happily cave in and nuzzle into your chest with an apology.

I need to resist you and lose the battle (physically, mentally). Only if you’re more capable than me, are you deemed safe enough for me to be tiny, frail and vulnerable. If you capture my mind, I will yield easily. Dominance doesn’t have to be loud or forceful. Do you know Shemar Moore in his role as Hondo on the S.W.A.T. series? His balance of charm and authority is wonderful.

It’s a balancing act of oldschool and modern lifestyles. I’m currently building my own business as a Patreon artist and cosplayer (400k fans across platforms), but will likely never be able to offer huge financial support. As much as that hurts my ego, it’s just the nature of things. I live with chronic pain (~15x/month) that makes a regular job impossible. So I need you to be a provider without making me feel guilty for it. In return, you get a devoted partner for life.

I’m very attentive. I have high empathy and pick up on tiny cues. A shift of balance, change of pitch, the twitch of a finger or a particular look. If attuned to you, I’ll be easy to lead and eager to please. If I resist or brat, I am likely struggling with shyness and need more of your authority so I can settle down my thoughts and give in. That’s when the hidden little side shines through; buried so deeply that I can even slip into petspace since it’s easier to excuse an animal to be submissive rather than a human. (In my mind.)

However, I’m not only little. Some of my kinks can reach quite far into edge territory (of course minding RACK, SSC and enthusiastic consent). I’m happy to dive into these topics further if the other aspects of our lives overlap enough to consider a partnership.

Physically, I’m petite at 1.53m (5ft 0in) tall and like to describe my body type as “soft athletic”. I put on muscle easily, but it comes and goes in 6-months-spurts of motivation. My hair is buzzed short on the sides and spiked up with dyed white tips on the top; my eyes are blue-green and have two freckles in the iris which people often think are pretty cool. My complexion is that of snow, haha.

My vanilla interests include LARP, cosplay, written roleplay (lots of escapism in those three first interests, haha), casual gaming (Warframe, Ark, Monster Hunter World, RDR2, Raft), movies (though no horror unless you can babysit me for 3 months straight!), audiobooks, my cat and a newly purchased motorcycle which I've been cruising around on for a few months this summer! I live in the country famous for mountains, chocolate and expensive watches – and it’s magical to explore its roads on two wheels. (I'm willing to relocate if it's deemed safe, but would prefer to welcome you here, instead.)

Still with me? I hope so.

With my future partner, I would wish for someone ideally older than me, but not surpassing 38 years of age. Either partaking in my interests or with a healthy tolerance to let me enjoy them and listen to my rambles. Definitely taller than myself, though that’ll be easy! (I’m tiny. Be taller.) Ideally toned/muscular and not with too much body hair (beards are fine, chest not too much). Childless and not interested in having children. You’ll get bonus points for martial arts skills to either share with me as a hobby, or to use against me in play-fights.

If you feel like reaching out, please be so kind and add a picture (or several). Yes, there is more to attraction than visual aspects; but I’ve had my share of being “catfished” and have had enough heartache from it. I will be able to share pictures and videos (SFW) immediately, too.

Please note: I'm looking for a partner - not flings. Please go ahead and find easier prey if you respond with "hi" and no image. I’m open to smaller conversation starters along with a picture, but after 21 years of chronic pain, I don’t want to waste time and energy.

Feel free to check out my previous posts for more detail on my journey with chronic pain. I tried a different post structure. :)