Hi everyone

I've been single for a while and i felt a bit lonely lately. I am 29, i would identify as mtf but i am pre any transition (I am getting my facial hair removed atm, though). I might decide to do changes in the future, but i also might not. I'm also open to any gender.

I'm 170cm tall and 87KG, sadly gained some weight but i'm trying to lose it again (already down 5kg, so yay, haha).

I'm looking for someone that is soft and caring, but can also be sadistic. I like challenges. I like banter. I like to be spoiled as well, but also denied of various pleasures. At the core I'm looking for someone I can be my whole self with, being trans, submissive, and a caring person, I'd like to find someone who can appreciate that. What I'm looking for in terms of play is someone who enjoys challenging me, i especially like doing degrading things for someone else's enjoyment. I won't enjoy it in the moment, but i will afterwards, especially if i'm praised for how good i was being and how much i endured. Those degrading things can go pretty far, but don't have to be at the most extreme, but the option is there. I prefer people who enjoy my enjoyment of suffering, rather than enjoy the suffering, if that makes sense. Doesn't have to be irl but can. And it doesn't have to be exclusive (but again, it can for the right person). And if you're a chaser, aka "I always just wanted to fuck a t**nny", kindly fuck off.

My kinks are:

Mindfuck, Humiliation, Denial, Edging, Praise (if i deserve it), Domination, Challenges, Gooning, Behaviour and mental modification / conditioning, Bimbofication, Dumbification, Hypno, DD/MD/LG, Softdoms, Oral/Anal training (if i'm in the mood)

I like to do gross things as challenges, being made to feel subhuman. This can include scat, pee play, toilet play, ashtray play etc. But i'm not into those things specifically, the important thing for me is that i do it for you i get off on the humiliation and extremity of it and to make you proud. Softdoms to me are people that are nice and caring and nurturing, but at the same time can me really mean, if you get that, great!

Limits are:

Pictures of my face, or anything identifiable (for quite some time, might change if we got to know each other), Permanent damage to my body or home (like i wont pee on my bed lol), This lifestyle being outed, Public play, feet (the only gross thing i hate lol). I might add things here if I encounter them.

Outside of kink i like hiking, biking (although i've been lazy lately), video games, fantasy stuff, history, music, cooking.

I'm looking for someone that wants to play a bit every once in a while, ideally irl too, but i might be too shy for that, i have a lot of anxiety and sometimes get a bit depressed, so that can be hard for me. We could start out easy, i think some of the things i described need a bit more getting to know each other, unless you're willing to brainstorm and get to know me that way.