The thing is, I really want to keep myself on edge more. I want to deny myself more. I don't want permanent denial; I just want to earn my orgasms.

I just don't have self control. Neither does my pussy.

About Me

Okay, now that that's out of the way: I'm settled in life, have a good job in higher education, and consider myself "sort of" kinky. I'm definitely submissive and want to be controlled. I don't get off on pain (yet?), but I do get off on being tortured with edging. I just... get so close and torment myself so much that I give in too soon and end up disappointed.

Description-wise, I'm a plus-sized Caucasian woman with long brown hair and what I think are perfect sized breasts. No tattoos, no piercings besides one in my earlobes. I dress and act very conservatively and don't tend to talk about my sex life or preferences with anyone not directly involved in it (which, you would be).

In my daily life, I like to read sci-fi/fantasy, work on writing a novel, and play video games (PC and Nintendo Switch). You age isn't a big deal for me, but over 21 is preferable.

What I'm Looking For

Accountability. Control my orgasms. Control my edges. Make me edge until I've earned the right to cum. Make me beg you to make my arousal and desperation worse. Remind me how much I love it; remind me how much I really don't want to cum yet, that I love being edged and horny and needy. That I want to be a good girl and good girls don't get to cum whenever they want. That I only get to cum when I've worked for it, earned it, begged for it. Tell me I'm a good girl for edging and letting you control my orgasms. Tell me I'm a good girl for begging. Tell me I'm your good little slut for edging and not cumming without permission.

To start, I'm looking to do some chat sessions online/via text, but we can move up gradually to voice/camera if we fit well together.

Limits: Anal play and exhibitionism are hard limits, as are probably a lot of things more on the hardcore side of BDSM--again, pain is not a turn-on for me, but control and submission and bondage definitely are. DD/lg is not really my scene, but I'm fine with calling you Sir if we get to that place. Pictures/Videos are a no until we get to know each other better. So I know you read this section, please tell me if you're a coffee/tea drinker, and how you like yours. Communication is huge. Just talk to me. Ask me to be a good girl and safeword for you (green/yellow/red, or some else similar and agreed upon).

Turn on's: tease and denial, erotic hypnosis, audio erotica, mantras, control/submission (yours/mine), dirty talk, light degradation. Tell me when to edge, how long to edge, how many edges to do, what toys to use and how to use them. Tell me what to watch or listen to or fantasize about while I edge for you like a slut. I'd love it if my edging and suffering and submission turns you on as well. I'd love to edge for someone better than me, in control of me, in control of my pussy and clit and orgasm.

If all that sounds good to you, reach out. I've probably forgotten to mention something, so feel free to reach out even if you just have a question.

ETA (hope that's okay): I'm in the US in Central Time.