Hi, I'm Jun. I'm 19 and have been struggling with something that I can't seem to shake. I've always felt a deep longing for something more-something that feels real, something that makes sense. What l've realized is that I'm looking for a man who can take control, but not just any man... someone who can offer me the kind of guidance I never got from my own father. I need someone who understands the kind of vulnerability I carry, someone who sees through my facade and knows exactly what I need - someone who can fulfill the role my dad never did. I've always wished my therapist could be more than just a professional figure-someone who could be a father to me, someone who could teach me, mold me, and even discipline me when needed. I've always felt like there was something missing, a need for a man who could be both tender and firm, who could guide me through my trauma while also teaching me how to surrender to his power. I've tried to understand it, but I think deep down, l've been craving that paternal figure who could make me feel small, safe, and... taken care of in a way I never experienced.

I'm imagining a therapist-patient scenario, where I sit in front of him, vulnerable and exposed. My body-skinny and flat, not conventionally beautiful but not unpleasant-makes me feel self-conscious. He's not blind to it, though. He scans me, not with sympathy but with assessment. He knows I'm not a classic beauty, but there's something about me that intrigues him. My discomfort, my vulnerability, it draws him in. He's calculating, judging, and I can feel his gaze lingering on me. It's as if he's deciding what to do with me, how much he can push me, how much he can shape me into something more. He's demanding, but it's not in a harsh way-he's teaching me what it means to submit to someone who knows better than I do. I want him to make me feel small and judged, to ask me to show him more of my body so he can fully assess it, to see me for what I really am, not just what I want to believe I am. I want to be exposed, not just physically, but emotionally, mentally. I want to crave his approval, to long for his validation even as it terrifies me. Maybe, at some point, he'll ask me to do something small-like suck his thumb-as a way to show my submission, my acceptance of him as my guide. I want to feel the humiliation of it, but also the deep satisfaction of knowing I'm pleasing him, fulfilling the role l've been yearning for all along. I don't need a fairy tale. What I need is someone who can make me feel like I'm not just a patient, but a daughter-someone who will see my need for control, my desire to be shaped, and use that pr to break me open. If you think you could bring ti kind of dynamic to life, I'd love to hear from you. I want to feel the weight of your authority, the strength of your control, and the comfort of knowing you're

I want him to make me feel small and judged, to ask me to show him more of my body so he can fully assess it, to see me for what I really am, not just what l want to believe I am. I want to be exposed, not just physically, but emotionally, mentally. I want to crave his approval, to long for his validation even as it terrifies me. Maybe, at some point, he'll ask me to do something small-like suck his thumb-as a way to show my submission, my acceptance of him as my guide. I want to feel the humiliation of it, but also the deep satisfaction of knowing I'm pleasing him, fulfilling the role l've been yearning for all along. I don't need a fairy tale. What I need is someone who can make me feel like l'm not just a patient, but a daughter-someone who will see my need for control, my desire to be shaped, and use that power to break me open. If you think you could bring this kind of dynamic to life, l'd love to hear from you. I want to feel the weight of your authority, the strength of your control, and the comfort of knowing you're taking care of me in a way no one ever has before. I'm ready for this. I think l've always been ready.

This is not my writing but I want the exact same thing - trust me, I’m not lazy to write I just believe that this text shows exactly what I want to the tea. I do hope to see you guys 🩵 please put effort into your introduction because it’s really difficult to keep track when the messages pile up (if they will in this case)

Thanks again 🩵