Hello,

I am a yapper so I'm just gonna yap.

Sometimes I see really skinny-tall women or women with disproportionately large butts and it makes me feel a certain kind of way.

Sometimes I see an asian woman with a short black skirt her bare legs out or black mesh-y stockings on (I think)? This was before Winter mind you lol.

I try to be respectful in general and not look at women really at all in public. I've noticed my eyes do a double take though when I see women like that, or if they're wearing the right clothes then that's when I start doing shameful stuff and stare at their legs - kinda more discreetly in a rubbernecking way than overtly I guess. I don't want to make them uncomfortable. I'm probably wrong, but my perception is usually these women are popular with other people, but I'm not popular with people so it'd be very obvious and uncomfortable for me to come up to them and cold approach them because I, yk, was just thinking about humping the back of their legs a few moments ago.

Speaking of feeling uncomfortable, I think being around women irl makes me uncomfortable in general because I just... feel like we'd have to have a lot of catching up to do so to speak? Like I assume if you're dressing sexy, you know what you're trying to do, but when push comes to shove it feels wrong to want to do things you wouldn't expect for me to want. It feels even more baffling especially online when sometimes women are put off by male arousal although I can guess why which would be objectification. Regardless, if I'm being objectifying or not, I still feel sexually frustrated - and hug-deprived. (Not to be like where's my hug but yk).

Another baffling thing is I notice my generation is not fucking, so, why? Let's meet up. I don't care if we don't have sex. Like hell, let's get coffee or go on a date, it doesn't matter. I want to connect with you in some way. Regardless, I feel sexually frustrated and sometimes there are weeks where I can barely talk because of college, but I'm hoping you're patient if even months go by and we haven't done things just because of logistics (speaking of which, no stds please). I'm hoping to get closer to the type of women I'm attracted to (because being generally quiet and literally autistic and just generally a nervous wreck hasn't been helping lol). So, I'm seeking someone who makes it feel like a safe space for weirdos and can "hold my hand" literally or metaphorically. ×_×

All da best, women I'm attracted to.