I am not new to the BDSM community. I discovered BDSM in my teens and have been hooked ever since. I find that BDSM increases my libido- without it I have no desire for sexual intimacy.

The past six months was a time of reflection; I learned to find acceptance in soft moments, at peace with myself. I managed to find a sense of routine/schedule that is baggy enough to fit my ever-shifting life.

I am here because I still feel a sense of loneliness. An ache for something special. What do I desire?

- Trust. The steady, unwavering type that can't be faked or rushed.

- Attunement: not the empathetic flavor that tiptoes the line with codependency. The compassionate kind that allows us to recognize each others humanity outside of contracts, agreements and defined roles.

- Lots of spankings. Wake up spankings. Maintenance spankings. Date night spankings. Accountability spankings. Funishments. Bend me over the kitchen counter with a wooden spoon. Take me to the forest, let's find a switch.

- Rules and structure. I like commands, especially when there's an underlying, practical purpose to what I am being told to do. For my own good. For the benefit of our dynamic.

- A contract. Ritual. I do not require high protocol, a collar, or all the fancy slave positions and so forth. What I desire is the feeling of reverence that comes with negotiating what is right for us to both have our needs met, to honor what our hearts yearn for, to make agreements about how we will show up for each other. A step above the casual banter and let's-just-see-what-happens approach.

I am service oriented. As much as I love the idea of being a domestic slave who stays at home cooking and cleaning all day, waiting for Master to come home and fuck me. At this time it is right for me to have a career in finance. I will continue to be independent in the outside world for my own healing and sense of stability. I dream of a dynamic that feels grounded, steady and blissful. I do not shy away from challenges. I have the courage to be vulnerable. Would you like to dance with me?