(35-45) looking for long term Sir/Master

Hi, I’m 40yrs old, I’m Aussie, I am a bigger girl, I have long dyed red hair and brown eyes. I have self esteem issues that’s for sures but i am very loyal and honest and I am also very needy and love a needy/obsessive slightly sadistic Sir. I will do nearly anything for the right Sir.

I'm not totally new but definitely always learning, and aiming to please and am open minded but am alil rusty so to speak lol I love to serve, be used, and worship my Sir/Master. I like to be hurt alil, (but l'd have to get used to taking the pain again) and such things as CNC, TPE, Free Use, impact play, micro management, breath play, I do love alil jealousy in man and being owned mentally as well.. I am open to more and always learning, my hard limits are anything with scat and blood and young age or incest play and being ignored or and guilt trips (childhood shit)

I am looking for lifelong thing, (so must eventually be willing to locate) something where I can cherish my Sir for the rest of his life and he can use me as he sees fit so to speak, be each other’s best friends but at the same time I know my place, underneath him. And if you play apex, bonus! 🙌😝