We have a lot to cover, so let’s make this quick.

No, I won’t do long distance or online. No ageplay, no raceplay, no gross shit. You’d really better like to read. If you choose to respond, open by answering a super simple question:

What does BDSM mean to you?

To me, it means a lot. Arguably everything. It’s more than just bondage and sadomasochism. BDSM is a lifestyle I wish to lead. I’m a natural born submissive. I’m very kinky. My kinks are unconventional. Latex, petplay, inflatable latex, bimbofication, encasement, to give you a little taste. I’m a handful. A slow burn. I like to think of myself as a blank canvas with no one to paint me.

My experience is admittedly limited. As stated, I’ve seen quite a lack on the kink front. Most people I’ve known were staunchly vanilla; I’ve met few people in my life who shared my desires so I have many fantasies with little to show for them so far.

I don’t look like a porn star. If you’re expecting a finished product, look elsewhere. I’m not where I’d like to be in my transition and I feel strongly that this is influenced by my lack of fulfillment. My hair is brown and runs down to my nipples (I do pull it out compulsively </3). I’ve been told I look like my mother. I’m borderline severely underweight. At the end of the day, I should take better care of myself. It may not be healthy to hinge my own identity on whether or not I have a dom to please, but it’s how I’ve always been. It’s just very hard to juggle feelings of dysphoria and apathy and feeling unwanted. I know that I have a lot to offer, but I’ve no one to offer myself to.

You are, ideally, one who feels similarly to me in that BDSM is a lifestyle. I’m not looking for fuzzy cuffs and rough fucks on speed dial. I need a committed dynamic with communication and consistency and clearly defined outlines on how to proceed. BDSM is fundamentally about trust, and I have few people I trust. I’ve been without someone to give myself to for so long. Maybe I’m just too picky? I just know that with the right person and the right circumstances I could truly excel and be an exceptional submissive.

If you’re deranged enough to have read this far, congratulations! You most likely just wasted at least 2 1/2 minutes of your precious time, and I thank you for it. Send a message. Shoot your shot. Even if you just liked reading this mess… Really, anything but asking “what are you looking for” or something equally as lazy. Oh, and please have a penis. Did I mention that yet? That’s a pretty big one for sure.

Unequivocally, Holly.