I've always felt alone for as long as I can remember. But then I realized that this deep sense of loneliness wasn’t something that could be filled by the presence of others. In the end, i was myself in my own mind, accompanied by a sweet, existential melancholy. This feeling was addictive; I think I noticed it quite early. The source of artistic beauty came from this feeling too—perhaps loneliness was the truest feeling of all. Knowing that this feeling never won't go away, i want to be loved desperately. It is hurtful and embarassing to confess. But that's the truth.

But don't misunderstand me, someone who sees me outside or my friends cannot see my melancholy, it is under my control. I just radiate joy around the people I love and I am happy to have them in my life. I am a clown 🤡🥳

Why i am here: if a man was to enter my life, I don’t believe this feeling would disappear, though I do think it could be shared—or so I hope. Want to try?

⚠️ If you don't want to have a video chat in two days please don't text me. Just because i use Reddit doesn't mean that i like wasting my time with scammers. 🦕

About me: Hello, I am a 22 years old university student living in Turkey. First of all I would like to say that I am not a sub and I don't want to have online sexting with you also don't want to have a relationship based on kink. I am only interested in Ddlg and I like it to be balanced with a normal dating relationship, little girl is already a part of my character and I can always see reflections of it, so I don't have any little age as you describe. But this side of me, i can only show it to a person. I am looking for someone who we can start from here nd quickly move our relationship to a close distance, first by seeing each other often, then, if the necessary conditions are present, by starting to live in the same area (not a visa hunter, i am too dumb for that)

🌟I am not interested in men under 35, please do not text me if you are that young.

🌟Do not text me if you are married

🌟 Please don't write if you are looking for a sub to dominate, i am a brat and won't listen you.

🌟 I am only interested in blonde or blondish men. (I am not looking for an arian, i promise)

About me: I look like Heidi, very white skin, short black hair and black eyes, 1.52/57, I have two cats named Stalin and Lenin. I like collecting records, thinking about life, cursing capitalism weird French films with age gap. Humor is very important to me, it is a big part of my character, i get even funnier when i am stressed. And of course I like dad jokes (not because I have daddy issues lol). I also like poems, old movies and songs. I think I like everything old, including men (except the old patriarchal society and old toilet designs). And I think that in 15 years max cyborgs will make us their pets and I will have an advantage because I am cute. And you know what? I will write poems for you my love...

That's all I have to say, I'm waiting for your messages if you think you are the person I'm describing. 🥳🎊