Hello and thank you for taking the time to read my message.

I've seen on this app that apparently, the type of Dom I'm looking for is lurking in the shadows, quietly observing instead of speaking out. So I've decided to throw my heart out in this message, hoping to find my forever Dom.

Please excuse my typing mistakes in advance, english is not my first language and I'll do my best to be as clear as possible! Also it's my first time doing this and it's a bit nerve-racking.

Vanilla relationships are not for me. It took a while to realize that and understand that it was valid to wish for something different. Well, maybe even craving something different.

Throughout these past relationships, i was missing something crutial, proactivity , a strong, dominant presence by my side and more BDSM elements in and out of bed.

This is my bottle in the sea for a LTR, exclusive relationship with an experienced and caring Dom. Bonus points if you're a bit sadistic.

I would see this starting online and finishing into something IRL so long distance would be possible but we would need to be able to meet (I'm in Europe).

My apologies in advance but I won't be responding to anyone younger than 28.

I love to feel owned by someone, it makes me feel safe and desired. Apparently there are Doms out there looking to care and nurture for a sub, help and guide them through their day to day with care and empathy, and of course some firmness when needed.

It brings me pleasure to please and push my limits for my Dom. However I can only let go into this feeling if the person is safe, trustworthy, and respectful. I can be very sensitive and emotional and I can't give myself away to someone if there is not that exclusive bond and connection between us.

If you are not monogamous, this is not for you. I get attach to one person and one person only and would like the same back.

I want us to get to know eachother. Starting with cosy chats and/or calls to talk about everything and anything. I want us to gain eachother's trust over time. Discover eachother's strenghts and weaknesses, kinks and desires, dreams and goals.

I'm going to be fully transparent here but I'm currently working on my mental health. And I want you to know that I won't rely on you for my recovery. I don't want to be dependant on anyone. Whether you are in my life or not, I will be in charge of my own recovery because it's the healthiest thing to do. I also have a tight circle of trusted friends that are helping me in this journey.

However, i'm seeking structure and guidance. I wish to have a stable and strong presence by my side that won't be scared off by my fears and worries. I want to fully trust your judgement and follow your rituals and plans, with the hope that you can provide a secure space filled with patience and empathy. I would love to be looking at you with sparkles in the eyes as your confidence and calmness eases my heart. And of course I understand that punishments might be sometimes necessary, which I'm far from against about.

Wanting a strong presence by my side doesn't mean I expect someone flawless and perfect. We're all humans, we all have our past and personalities, it's okay to show weakness sometimes. I want to be a safe haven for you too where you can allow yourself to be you, because that's the person I want to see.

Even though I can be a bit of a mess, I'm independent and tired of toxic behaviors. Please don't take this the wrong way but you've got to admit that a lot of Doms can sometimes lean into the toxic dangerous side. As a female, I must protect myself from it. So that's why I'm expecting full honesty from you and will in return always communicate clearly and honestly. We are adults and we are too tired for unnecessary drama. All I want is a peaceful life with my dear Dom and loved ones. So that also means that I won't be scared to cut you out if I'm feeling something off about you. Which I will of course let you know politely.

Okay about the kinks.. This is already going all over the place but please bear with me. I'm extremely shy and unsure about explaining or listing my kinks here so I'll do my best.

The deeper the bond and trust we will have, the further we/I will go. I'm very curious and always open to try new things if they do not cross my boundaries. I need to experiment new things in and out of bed, feeling like you can make me submit to you with just one look or a few words.

I'm not a brat and will hate to feel like I'm annoying you. One of my pleasures comes from seeing you proud and satisfied. However I do like to lightly tease or give a slight poke just to see you take over again and show me who's really in control.

I love to be tied up, immobilized in any way, soft or rougher play, light chocking, impact play, and more... I want to discover edging amongst many other things. There is so much I want to know and try, and it all gets me excited to think about. The simple thought of having someone guiding me through all of this is very very arousing and attractive.

All I want is to be your good girl. I'm craving praises from the person I trust as my Dom and it will always make me weak and go further for you. I want to know how to please and satisfy you to see the lust and love in your eyes. I will crave your touch, voice and control, day and night.

If you have a degradation or humiliation kink, we will need to talk about it. It's something I could potentially be eased into with the right person.

My hard hard limits would be extreme pain, blood, vomit, scat, piss, illegal stuff, hitting the face (giving and receiving).

This is a very long post and if you're still reading, thank you. I strongly believe that the more I'm open and honest, the more I will find Doms that exactly match my needs (and vice versa).

Here is a bonus in case you read this far. I have blue eyes, glasses and dark blond hair. I'm average height and on the thin size. I do want to exercise again to get in better shape. If you like shy creative airheads that are introverted and playful, we might be a match.

If this resonates with you, please don't hesitate to contact me with a picture of you. I would like to send a picture in return whenever I feel comfortable in our chat.

Thank you for reading and take care!