greetings everyone! after reading so many others I decided to stick my neck out and make an advertisement of my own. I made sure to be thorough. I placed what I am looking for and my requirements at the bottom so please read all of it before responding

who I am

I grew up religiously hassidic in the Jewish community of monsey NY, but I now live in south jersey near Philadelphia. I just finished my position as a clerk in the USPS and when my license is old enough I wish to make it as a long-term career. as of right now I am seeking somthing less physically demanding. due to my neuro divergence I am receiving help from the Department of Vocational Rehabilitation to get employed. Hopefully iy"h this will happen soon.

My hobbies include:

• table top role playing games (with a special focus on the Chronicles of darkness)
• reading silly books
• watching silly action/spy/fighting movies (anything guy Ritchie makes is gold)
• playing silly board games 
• taking long walks in the city with a cup of mocha and settling in a park when my feet get tired.
• listening to music
• passing interests and general indoor-nerd activities

in terms of Bdsm:

I started out in the community ~5 years ago already after significantly educating myself on the subject. Once I knew I was submissive I decided I wasn't going to compromise that part of me for anyone. in all of my serious relationships they always had tpe and between those periods I've had many encounters with play partners and the like. But my strengths have always been in the relationship aspect so my kinks reflect that. I am very experienced in alot of things. I had formal training from a mentor that showed me how to apply my talents. I would say the most intense experience and the peak of my threshold was when I was a kajira. I look back on it as an amusing time but still. if you know you know how that lifestyle can be xdd

Discipline, High protocol, and any other kinks that promote the act of giving my mind and body in devotion to my dom.

I also have a strong but subtle childlike aspect to my submission. I would go so far as to say that I am a little, but it's there so having it be acknowledged when it presents itself is also very important to me.

In terms of sex:

i consider sex to be very important,  so I won't do it with just anyone. I am not looking for a play partner or a fwb. I don't consider the practice of Bdsm or structured relationships to be of a sexual nature anyway. I will be willing to engage in fun activities after i am claimed, but before all that I will tell you that I have a penis and there is also sexual related ptsd.

this has no bearing on me in my everyday life. I am not a fan of having problems obstruct my goals so whenever they come up I deal with them efficiently. I go to group and individual therapy and have been on hrt for 5 years. baruch hashem my body has developed wonderfully.

Because of these two factors my libido is not very high in the first place so I wish to get to know you on a deeper level before anything else. know that if I am accepted I will give my body as well with enthusiasm :D

my boundaries: 

I have a few but they are important to me.

• if you haven't guessed already, I am Jewish by blood and belief. Therefor I do not wish for my obligations as a submissive to conflict with my obligations to my religion.

• i have ambitions and that I wish to see through, mainly Financial stability so I may support myself. I understand that some TPE lifestyles promote the sub moving in full time and I am open to the idea eventually, but I believe some independence is important.

• ive come a long way in terms of my mental health and self confidence. I hold myself to a very high standard and respond well to doms who have high expectations with the best of intentions. I wish to be uplifted as sub and respected as a woman. not degraded. Even as punishment.

• I wish to be of importance to my Dom and be a consistent presence in their life. as such i make it a point to be prompt with my replies and consider leaving a text on read to be outright disrespectful. I ready and willing, have the time and resources to initiate to a long-term relationship. Your presence is your authority and i wish to feel it.

what I want

I wish for a relationship. one built on mutual interest and a stable foundation so the structure can be built upon. as I mentioned I wish it to be consistent and long-lasting.

on the most basic level, in exchange for your protection and acceptance of me and responsibility, I wish to submit myself to you fully and completely with all of those things that are implied. as I mentioned I am very experienced and trained in many things so it will only be a matter of adapting myself to you. don't be hesitant to reach out :)

I am not without my flaws of of course. I tend to get intense with enthusiasm when I see that things are going well and my autism tends to miss social cues. one of the things about bdsm that I find appealing is that submissives are allowed to make mistakes, that these will be addressed so that i am only able to learn and grow from them. I place great importance in discipline for this purpose. Im a good girl. I am not a brat, I would only wish to be an absolute joy for you. be patient and most of all be kind and i will be open to you in all ways. I am ready and willing to do so :)

before responding you should know

• I do not want to be a part of a polygamous arrangement or a third to a couple.
• i don't not want to do anything long distance so please be reasonably within the locations discribed in the title. know that meeting me in person will be required before any serious agreements
• I will not be considering anyone under the age of 23 and over the age of 31
• all of this is flexible but you should be aware notheless when responding to this advertisement please state your name, general location, and a photo of yourself so I can respond with a photo of my own.

Men!

if you are reading this far, and you too wish to try your hand at being my dom then you are welcome to do so :D!

but know that because of circumstances mentioned I will hold you with extra scrutiny and am not willing to be as flexible. If you are closer to me in age (no older than 27) physically accessible in terms of location and if I find you attractive then I will welcome you with an open mind and heart.