there are times that you'll demand a soft touch and times that you'll take a firm grip, but sooner or later, heat and pressure will allow you to be shaped in ways that you could never bend yourself.

acceptance can be a long journey but there's no reason at all that you can't enjoy your slip down that slope. in fact, that's the root of the problem - it feels so fucking good to give in. maybe your parents tried to teach you to respect yourself or perhaps they never bothered. either way you somehow managed to feel rewarded when you're stepped on, spit on, spanked, choked, beaten, insulted, and used as a cockwarmer and worshiper without any regard for what anyone else thinks you should be doing with your life.

so long as you know your Owner values you and sees you as His precious property, you can learn to love any way that He mistreats you

you reluctantly live day to day as a functional human being just to lay alone in bed and rub your pussy dumb to fantasies of being broken down in fundamental, dehumanizing ways. you love that leaking reminder between your legs that you're wired to be weak and wet when you're hurt and threatened so that big, strong men can more easily colonize your womb and force you to serve your purpose as a woman. but it frightens you too, and that's why you carry the contradiction of needing to deeply trust a man who treats you without mercy or respect.

i don't know you yet, but i can guess the ways these reveries creep into your head when you least expect them. maybe you sit through meetings daydreaming about being underneath the conference table. would you feel more fulfilled dressing up for work if you knew that when your day was done, you'd come home to wear nothing but a collar as a persistent reminder that you're property?

no matter how far you've explored your twisted dreams of degradation, there's always deeper, beckoning you into places that you feel might make you sick or hurt you in ways you've never been. but the thrill, the aching, and the craving always win. there doesn't have to be any end to surrender. there's always more humanity to strip away from you until you're nothing more than a tightly controlled bitch like you've long imagined being.

• experienced dominant, hypnotist, psychological sadist.
• white, 6'7", 240lbs, chubby/builtfat. long brown hair, beard, glasses, tattoos.
• tech professional, remote worker, homeowner, normal-passing.
• i enjoy age gaps but i prefer to speak to women 22 with some kink experience and independence in their lives.
• i get along best with other introverts and nerds. i think friendship is important to counterbalance the degrees both of intimacy and abuse that i'm proposing.
• i'm open to romance but my priority is an Owner/property TPE dynamic. i expect your introduction to match my energy.
• must be a US resident or citizen abroad open to relocation. no long distance long term online only bullshit. if you just wanna talk about your sick fetishes, start with your therapist. i'm offering an opportunity to live them.
• be open to cnc, edging/denial (short-medium term), anal/oral-only, group play, and gaslighting/brainwashing. i'll work within most other hard limits.

my aim is not to 'ruin your life' or replace the parts that already work for you. i just want to provide you with the direction that you need to feel satisfied and purposeful, whether that be as a person or as a pet. i want to understand just what it is that you're missing, and exploit that need until you're wrapped around my finger and can't picture ever again being responsible for making your own decisions.

i want what you need.