Essentially the title above^

Just a disclaimer: I’m not a sickly thin woman looking for someone to put me at death’s door (as far as safety goes, there’s nothing to worry about).

The truth is that I’ve been dealing with a miscellaneous eating disorder my entire life, and I’ve been cycling through the same 70lbs for years.

I like to think of it as a talent, honestly. I was on the lower end of that range 4 months ago, and now I’m back at the top. I’ll probably be back at the bottom in a few months…and around and around again lol.

I carry weight fairly well and people can’t really tell how much weight I gain/lose (I’ve had people in my life guess 20lbs), but I can’t stand being as heavy as I am now. A healthy lifestyle doesn’t work for me—while I’m a relatively intelligent and logical person in other facets of my life, I can’t help but view my weight and diet in extremes.

I need to starve or I’ll binge. There’s nothing I can do about it, and I’m not looking for anyone to change that.

About you: I’m hoping you take pleasure in dictating what I can eat, how much exercise I do, etc. I would like this to be largely non-sexual (that means no NSFW pics for the time being), just because I’m really not in the headspace for it. I just want to lose weight and get my life in order.

Above anything else, I just want to make a friend that I can share this fucked up part of myself with! Not all of our conversations have to be about weight management, I just wanna make a pal :)

Here are some of my interests (you don’t have to have all or any of them, I love learning new things. Yap about your passions with me!)

• I love to read (especially historical fiction!)

• I love playing games (not a professional or anything, I started gaming last year and I’m still catching up.)

• I love music, movies, and I’ll never pass up on a heated debate about them

• I love animals (duh)

-I love to laugh, banter, and witty people are my favourite

What you are not:

• Someone who will push for a NSFW relationship. If we get there naturally over time, then so be it, but don’t start off our conversation calling me a slut or pig or something like that.

• That’s it. Just don’t be a creep please HA

I am open to sharing face pics once we establish a trusting relationship. People say I’m pretty, but I suspect I have pretty rough body dysmorphia, so I’d have to disagree. Not promising anything, if that makes sense.

I’m open to light humiliation, light manipulation, and casual NSFW conversations.

I don’t know if this is relevant, but I’m going to take ED recovery seriously once I get to a weight I can tolerate (I have a number in mind). Once I get to that point, we may have to stop talking or at least stop the dynamic. My pipe dream is to fully recover before I permanently screw up my health and life, and while we may both me a little messed up in the head, I want a friendly relationship with someone who won’t get in the way of that once I’m ready for it.

If you’ve made it down this far and wanna message me, open with an unpopular opinion so I know you’ve read this :)

I’m also open to both men and women!