Hello,

I'm 25 years old M. I'm into healthy lifestyle. I enjoy the gym and I'm in a decent shape. My build is more on the slender side so I don't build that much muscle. I live in Finland. I work remotely. I could travel if things really seem right. I am seeking a woman or a MF couple.

I am still a virgin because I'm pretty shy. I'm shy especially if its about pushing for sexual things. I'm docile in that field. Sexually I definitely identify as submissive.

I have lighter fantasies about being "saved" by a gentle dominant woman. But I also have "darker" fantasies about cuckold. The latter are my most submissive fantasies. I have had them for quite a while and they have grown stronger over time.

In addition to it being a desired fantasy, experiencing cuckold is also a fear to me. It is the most humiliating thing I can imagine. I think it would be beyond shameful to be subject to cuckold while being a virgin. Sometimes I get these thoughts when watching porn and I often have to turn it off because of the shame I feel.

But it intrigues me so much. I am unsure why it is a fear but also a deep desire. Maybe the desire has grown stronger than the fear. That my sexual experience would be fully under control of the dominant. That is to say, they get to have me in chastity. They get to decide if I can lose my virginity or whether my first experience with intercourse should instead be that of another man doing it while I have to helplessly watch in chastity. Perhaps it has to stay like that. They get to teach me to identify with the position they want me in.

Being in chastity and denial, hopefully I can please in other ways. I fantasize about being a lick boy, being allowed to lick intimate spots for the first time. I wish to know the rules for how a good boy is and what a good boy ought to do, so I can happily obey, even when embarrassing. I desperately want to be a good boy.

I would have to learn what penetration looks like, how it sounds like, perhaps even the taste of it. But not what it feels like, not with my virgin penis. When finally subjected to the situation, it is not something I just can turn off, and I can only fall into a deep feeling of submission.