Hello!

Masturbating is a very emotional hobby for me, and I'm ideally looking for a long-term Domme that understands that. (Seeing yourself as a Masturbatrix or Mommy is not required.)

Let me roughly define Masturbatrix from a random website real quick:

"A masturbatrix, or cock controller, is a woman who enjoys instructing a man’s masturbation. She may or may not be into orgasm denial as well.She enjoys the experience of controlling a man’s cock, masturbation, and orgasms.

Observing another person masturbating is an erotic experience for many people, both those involved in the femdom world, and others. A Masturbatrix, as the term is typically used, is usally interested in some element of femdom interests such as:

– chastity training – teasing and denial – orgasm denial – cock control – feminization/sissification

A Masturbatrix does not necessarily have to possess the traits usually associated with those involved in femdom, such as strict, stern, cruel and punishing – many Masturbatrices consider themselves to be sensual, gentle and willing to use all of their feminine wiles to arouse and control their strokepets."

That's the general idea. Let me get more specific on what I'm looking for.

Now it's debatable if I'm really a sub-leaning switch, but I am an emotional (not physical) masochist and a little boy (among other things). I really don't like jerk off instructions or ruining or chastity, BUT I am maybe willing to do it to a very small extent with a person I trust. I really really don't like physical tasks that make me get up from my bed and stop masturbating. What I am looking for instead is someone to supervise my porn addiction on beeeeep via voice calls and screen sharing and to help me feel emotions. Here's your opportunity to be as cruel or as loving as you want with no remorse. I am desperate and pathetic enough to be happy with any female attention lol.

Verbally abuse me or encourage me as extreme as how you want (no verbal limits, 24/7), but be aware I do have a lot of limits on control because I am very dependent on porn as a coping mechanism. Porn addiction already controls my life, and your role is kind of like a co-top in a sense. I hope you understand. You can tell me what to masturbate to in real-time, or encourage me to edge for a long ridiculous time, or just tease or deny me or be lazily verbal in a session while you glance at my screen once in a while. I want you to join in and guide me when I masturbate, not so much instruct me or directly control me if that makes sense.

To put it another way, in general, you can directly order me on who and what to masturbate to, but you can only guide me on when, where, why, and how to masturbate. I obey orders. I might obey guidance. But again, I can be a little bratty or get carried away at times, so apologies in advance if I'm difficult. I honestly don't mean to be.

Another fun thing we can do is I can ramble about my bizarre and fucked up fantasies, but yeah... it's hard for me to stay on one topic because my mind is usually racing all over the place. It's ok to tell me to stay on track when you want to interrogate my brain. Conversations are difficult sometimes, and sometimes my brain breaks down and gets slow.

My main hobby is masturbating to porn and hentai, and yeah it's really sad to some people, but I see it as a fun thing to do, and masturbating to porn all day is not something that requires therapy contrary to popular belief. I've already talked to my therapist about it, so no worries. Our thing can be more casual or more like a dynamic, but ideally it's long-term and very flexible with you time-wise. I love praise and humiliation, and I also love confessing about my messed up life or being asked literally anything you want. No verbal limits 24/7 except being asked questions or interrogating that threatens my privacy or discretion or when I say "red" or "yellow." Degrade or praise me and order me to talk about something whenever you want, just don't order me to masturbate whenever you want (unless you maybe ask in advance).

It's probably not surprising that with a severe porn addiction comes severe mental issues, insecurities, and trauma. Some stuff might be undiagnosed, but again, no verbal limits! Any question is ok. We can play around with those traumas and issues. I'd love to. I've only done it a couple notable times, one being a dynamic that lasted half a year and another one being with a recurring person I'm not talking to anymore.

Consent and communication is very important. I expect a long talk about consent, communication, negotiations, limits, boundaries, aftercare, risks, discretion, exclusivity, experience, conflict, compromises, and whatever else we need to talk about. Be blunt. I'm socially stunted from years of isolating and looking at porn. Also, I have an avoidant attachment style that I'm working on in therapy. Depression and anxiety too. Sometimes I withdraw subconsciously, but we can try to figure out something.

Some other noteworthy miscellaneous things. You don't have to call yourself a Mommy or Masturbatrix. Everything in this post can be negotiated, and we don't have to stay loyal to the post. Just chatting is ok. I am a night owl in the USA who has college so I get busy with that. I am bi with a fuck ton of kinks. I love hearing your voice and being vocal. I get embarrassed easily and sometimes get shy (but I will still talk to you). I don't like receiving nudes unless it's agreed upon first. Whatever this ends up being, I guess I'm probably not really looking for a friend or romantic partner from this. Also, I have no limits when looking at porn except anything illegal or stuff that makes me or you uncomfortable in the moment. Let me know if there's anything that you don't want to see on my screen that's another limit for you. I can be extreme and depraved, and especially with hentai, I might randomly look at stuff that you've never even known was a kink and might utterly repulse you. So yeah... please come into this with an open-mind. This is very personal to me. I've been masturbating everyday, multiple times a day to porn for years and years, and a lot of the time, it's the only thing that makes me happy. Do with that what you will.

My limits include anything involving other non-consenting parties, anything illegal especially regarding minors, real life animals, showing myself, sharing our conversations, physical stuff usually, sending nudes, and not using beeeeeeeeeeep.

And yes I know I am asking for something extreme. I have the resources in place to get help if shit hits the fan. I do not have a history of hurting myself physically in any way, shape, or form, so again, be as cruel or as nice as you want. I can give you some suggestions lol.

P.S. This is an old post, so I tried to modernize it. Everything should be up to date, but if I miss something I apologize. More or less I am looking for the same thing again. You might disagree, but despite the association of poor psychological factors at play for me, I am not addicted to porn. I am skeptical to the use of "addiction" in the first place when people talk about porn. If anything I just have a compulsion at worst, or a special interest in it at best because of my autism! ^{^}

Send a chat, and in your first message let me know your asl, what drew you to my post, and your intentions in responding. Hmu and let's get weird :)