Hey y’all, I’ve been on this side of reddit for like a year ish now, and posted on here in the past before. I fear that I was a little too anxious and made myself into basically a pushover cause I didn’t know what to expect and I guess a lot of guys saw that as prime reason to take advantage of me (and not in a hot way).

There was one person I really hit it off with for awhile but after he repeatedly crossed boundaries and I finally said no, he threatened to leak my information and ruin my life I guess. Which obviously he couldn’t do but still, was scary nonetheless.

So I’m back on here, and I thought this time I would be a little more blunt.

About me: I am a college student going into game dev. I swim in my free time, and I love art. I play games a lot (recently otome games), and love having watch parties with my friends. I’m super into fandom culture too. Personality wise, I am extremely shy on account of crippling anxiety and OCD. A big part of that is privacy related, as since I was 10 i have constantly been paranoid about someone hurting me or worse. It’s pretty debilitating and not fun. That’s why the choice to not share audio and (usually) pictures of myself isn’t just because I’m playing hard to get. If I am horny and you bring it up/tell me to do so, it immediately makes me freak out and break out into a sweat.

What I’m Looking For: An older man to guide me into letting go and being a dumb horny slut for him over time, to put it bluntly. Kinks I love and always go back to despite being pretty new are things like coercion, drugs (like alcohol or weed), manipulation, gaslighting, overstimulation (being forced to cum over and over again), stuff like that. If what I’m looking for was a specific name, I think the tag in hentai is called moral degeneration. Basically, a smart and innocent girl being slowly turned into a constantly horny, vapid and dumb girl who lives to please old men who only want to make her worse and worse. Especially without my knowledge or very slowly, ie getting me to do stuff en i’m under the influence or nicely suggesting i rub my clit while i’m doing homework, basically being like a perverted daddy for me to trust despite him having bad intentions for me. Someone gentle that gains my trust only to corrupt me and before i realize it it’s too late.

Boundaries: Obvi please be gentle with pics and audio cause like I said it’s a sore subject. Anything painful or violent said in a kinky way is also a big no. Same with words too- I like playful or condescending degradation but outright calling me mean words just makes me sad and doesn’t really turn me on LOL. Another biiiig boundary is demanding more of my time than I am willing to give- I think people fail to understand that this isn’t my life, and I have a life outside of this, so expecting me to give up things to talk to you isn’t gonna happen. Like at all. I’m in a very close relationship with my best friend (I guess the best term would be queer platonic partnership? Idk it’s a more than friends less than lovers thing), so I’m not looking for anything irl or serious. Also I thought this didn’t have to be said but bringing up my friends or my best friend when we’re talking about kink is disgusting and will result in me blocking you. :)