55 [m4f] looking for LTR TPE M/s Relationship with a Christian constitutional conservative biological female from birth

The mental struggle is real.

This might be a long read so grab that popcorn, put your feet up and prepare for whatever reaction you might have. Enjoy.

Not even expecting a reply as this is just so out there. Actually expecting this post to be laughed at but hey, it is what it is. A shot in the dark.

actually I know this may sound asinine and I'm probably just ranting at this point. but I've kinda agonized about posting and realized Bruce lee was right in saying "If you spend to much time thinking too much about a thing, it will never get done."

A harem of trophy looking wives would be nice and I know it is not likely with my current set of circumstances. it might be the New Years alcohol speaking

(Hope everyone has a Happy New Year), but here goes.

2 time loser who has survived everything life has thrown at him by the good grace of God. and slowly beginning to thrive after rebuilding his life for the umpteenth time.

I've lost count.

As the opening disclaimer goes.

I'm looking for that impossible woman that wants to please God and despises her desires to be a slave but can't help herself to be one.

I currently don't want your love, I'm sure that may come about later if personalities mesh. I don't want to rule the world, just my part in it, and whomever happens to be permanently along for the ride.

Loyalty and obedience is paramount and foremost. If you want to call it being the so called 1950's housewife. that's fine. you want to call it abusive. that's fine as well. the service you provide will be most appreciated.

I've tried being the good caring husband with a little kink involved but that didn't work. one of my favorite motto's that i have tried to live by is "A gentleman first and a sick sadistic bastard second.", Again didn't work.

So let me list out what the perfect candidate for me is:

A hard no is if you like to cause drama. see you later. drama usualy comes to my place of residence to be eradicated, and what little I cause is usually reactionary. I don't have time to deal with it anymore. so let it be elsewhere or left at the door when you come in.
Anal will be negotiated but right now not something I'm thinking about, anal plugs for you? now that's fine. got no problem with that. again negotiable. Tails when your treated like a pet or for cosplay matters will also be negotiated.

1. Acknowledges and tries to put God first.

2. Is a biological female from birth

3. Christian constitutional conservative mindset.

(side note; i really would enjoy a harem with each female taking on a particular role subject to their particular kinks. But again I know that is unlikely and probably not beneficial but still a fantasy to be enjoyed never the less. Equipment and uniforms will be bought when capable.

1. A guarantee of a room preferably small somewhere in the dwelling that you can choose as a room I will not goto and a day of the week where some what a normal life can be enjoyed, Sundays are great for these as there is church and sports aplenty on those days. I'm more into bible study or televangical sermon as church crowds are okay but prefer just hearing the message.

Told you the struggle was real.

Preferences include

1. Age 39-54 at least until April of 2025, then add 1 to those numbers and another for each year afterward.( it will be out of respect of my kids and their age requirements for their old man)

2. Trophy fit and trim, Semi athletic to fully athletic physique that is pleasing to the eye. I know it's shallow. but at this point. Don't care. Going with that thought, long golden haired pony tailed blondes or traditional long haired pony tailed Asians preferred, Kimono whether short or long are beautiful things. would be a great bonus if you speak Japanese or Hebrew and can teach the language.

3. Firm, slightly larger that proportional tits to body size but not a deal breaker.

4. No tattoos but also not a deal breaker.

5. A biological woman who wants to be a slave and/or treated like one for a biological man she has never seen or met.

6. Will be fiercely loyal and absolutely obedient for the rest of my life. Since we will eventually be together, my life will be in your hands as yours will be in mine. Don't be psychotic. I've had enough of it from previous relationships. As of this writing I know I'm the one who reads as psychotic but I'm just stating preferences. you will ultimately be the judge of whether sanity exists or not. I know what I want. simple, direct, and detailed filled for your protection and mine.

7. Understands what it actually means with the whole cook in the kitchen, hostess in the living room, and a whore in the bedroom quote.

(might have misquoted this as I can't remember exact wording.)

Actually you will mostly be treated like a slave in most given situations, . but sometimes real life just needs some formal protocol at that moment.

1. Can handle boredom or be trained to. (There might be lots of this depending on how life turns out)

2. Can handle being in a position for hours at a time or be trained to.

3. Can handle the roles given you at any time, whether it be wife, maid, cook, secretary, pet, furniture or whatever comes to mind. but be slave minded individual at all times..

4. Can handle that aftercare, though highly important isn't necessarily what a slave should receive if she wants to feel fulfilled in her role. I know slave girls in this day and age want to feel safe and taken care of, but doesn't that defeat the purpose of being a slave? again negotiable and will be considered a default most of the time.

5. A lot of the lifestyle will be menu driven as there will be things that you will get to decide on within a range of options given. Example include meals, drinks, and uniform of the day or lack of. i want a slave not a completely mindless bimbo. You will need to make some decisions on how best to fulfill your role. My ideas might not be enough for your expectations of which I hope you have none.

All of which can be overridden at anytime depending on my mood.

I will have plenty of questions and Everything will be negotiated but know that i just want complete and total loyalty and compliance as the main goal. Eventually a contract and a set of rules will be written out and posted for both parties once agreed upon.

Acceptable punishments will be also negotiated before anything happens as well as anything that might pop up during the relationship.

I realize I probably set some so called "red flags" and that's fine. At the moment don't care. Again, negotiation and communication will be the driving factor in this dynamic. with your desire to serve as the catalyst.

I've joined and have been reading on this subreddit and noticed that all the great posts from females that fit even somewhat close to what i want are from those who are either just starting out and don't know exactly what they are hoping for or are younger than the age range I'm looking for.

Thank you ladies for giving me even a glimmer of hope that there are women out there that might fit the mold if I was younger. your lucky significant other, I'm already a little jealous of.

I'm 55 as mentioned, 5'10'sometimes measured as 6 ft. Strange I know. people's perspectives and some of the measurements through life confuse me but I'm officially 5'10" as per driver's licence.

Semi athletic/borderline not, body build as if I totally relax my stomach, it for some reason gets a little bulgy. I do alot of exercise at work. so i'm confused. love handles just don't go away for some reason.

i wear ball caps a lot so i've got a tonsure spot on the back of my head forming. and some receding hairline but the hair I do have on my head is actually decently long almost hippyish, call it a skullet if you want. At my age it's expected.

I have torn up my body through the years and the back isn't the greatest anymore but pretty much can manage to still get the job done.

The part that counts in this dynamic is a grower. feel free to ask about it's average or slightly larger size. And i no mean slightly larger not a significant amount larger just slightly.

Would have you treated like a queen if you act the slave and will treat you like a slave if you act like a queen, but more for just treating you as a slave at this moment. subject to change.

There is a set lifestyle I've envisioned and wanting to live. As I mentioned before, everything is to be negotiated as it comes to mind.

as for my current set of circumstances mentioned at the beginning of this post.

I will be looking for a place to live in a couple of months., so if you want to be a prisoner in your own home. you can fill that fantasy out as I'm willing to relocate. or

you can relocate to me if i find a place in that time. hopefully it will be in a place that doesn't have an income tax or overly abundant taxes but again negotiable.

Me relocating to California, New York, or Washington DC is a hard no. Texas is where i prefer to be. Other states and some places outside the U.S. negotiable.

I'm poor, don't expect anything as I'm in the process of rebuilding my life from scratch yet again from life's experiences. Life itself is a brutal experience.

My main kink is TPE with me being the dominant one with a BDSM mindset. you being bound and either serving or tortured is well within the boundries of my enjoyment. I get tp do what i want, you can either suffer my attentions or lack of, share in what I'm doing at the time. whether it be computer games (mainly Genshin, Minecraft, or Dawn of War.) or mainly just playing chess or some CCG, (MTG, Yu-gi-oh!) . Watching anime (I love Isekai),( actually love the whole Japanese culture but i'm not one to go stupid on an honor misunderstanding, I'm all about Bushido and a hierarchy of life. I do have my own creed that I follow but commiting seppuku in the face of dishonor is not something I enjoy the thought of, there is always a way of redemption.
Discussions will happen at all times if able and will hit any topic from physics to art, religion and politics, gaming to anime. Our success as a couple (or harem if the impossible manages to form) will be determined as we go, if able to go to any restaurant at any given point in time. and enjoy whatever is on the menu. The one who can tell me what 2 words are repeating in my head and manages to do 2 certain actions outside of it will have top priority over anyone else at all times. I can't tell you what they are, just that it is an agreement between me and The Lord almighty. there is an example in the old testament but it isn't the same in action. More than likely the one God has chosen for me has the same 2 words screaming in her head. you only get one guess. hopefully the audience that is reading this understands. Silly i know, but still understandable.

I know it will take a while to get there. but that is a goal.

Tl;dr: I enjoy you, you might not enjoy me. either way a good conversation is hopefully discussed. read the whole ad for total emotional reaction.

Post script. Feel free to message. Communication is probably the most important thing right now. Ask questions. Make comments and/or jokes (I love a good meme). Hopefully you will like the answers. If not. Sorry.
Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy new Year