It happens like this: I sigh, open my computer, type in the letters and this subreddit appears.

I have been doing this ritual, on and off, for almost two years. Looking for... you. I have realized, over a variety of moments that You will likely be a lurker more than poster, which forces me to be the one to make the first move. Quite cruel if I am going to be honest with you.

Well. This is awkward. I seem to know exactly what I am looking for but have completely neglected to introduce myself.

I am currently a student in Chicago (not looking for anyone in Chicago) but I will be moving to either NYC or CA -- depending on a variety of factors... including you.... in the next few months for Law School, I am a compulsive reader and I like to write (poorly, but also well when I have the chance).

I am a homebody at heart, and when I drink I tend toward browns, but would never pass up a good cosmo. I only like browns because it means I am one step closer to a library with a leather chair and fireplace.

I am 420 free/prefer a nonsmoker. I don't smoke whatsoever.

I hope we can read together, or even write. I will tuck my feet under your thighs as you sigh, delete, edit, rewrite. I hope we can spend afternoons trying to figure out needlessly complex board games.

My friends would describe me as a border collie, and I want to have one and a few acres up in Los Gatos (CA) after I graduate. I like coffee shops quite a bit, but don't drink coffee. I miss the days that meet cutes existed and we weren't locked into our phones everyday.

I would probably do best with someone who takes time to admire the sky at least twice a day and who doesn't take my failed attempts at witty comebacks personally.

I have a poetic, but rather dense nature and consider myself somewhat morally gray. That being said, hard line -- no married men, but beyond that, I have heard both the worst and best of humanity and am equally fascinated.

People consider me somewhere between pretty and cute. On Reddit I am "beautiful" if that means anything. I am 5'9 and thin-ish. This is a photo of me.

I don't care much for what you look like but I have never preferred blondes. I often find a selfie unnecessary, especially early on... and if you feel the need to include any of your.... other measurements, we likely won't be a good match. I also prefer much older men, but only due to quality of conversation. If you have made it this far, we will probably get along. (PS: include your favorite kind of bedsheet if you made it this far.)

To be clear, I am very much looking for a partner and (future) husband and am dating very intentionally for that.

On that note, I am financially stable now and project that I will continue to be financially stable throughout my life. I prefer a partner that has the same values. I also prefer the finer things in life, and again, have set myself up to make money that will support that (don't expect my partner to carry the burden of supporting that) but prefer someone who at the very least can "break even" with me.

So, the average redditor inquiries, why THIS sub? Why not elsewhere?

Beyond the vanilla stuff, I have a deep desire to be owned. Fundamentally. The technical, tactical stuff does not matter as much to me (ropes, handcuffs, etc... though that can be fun). It is all in the psychological. If you understand, you understand.

I want my Dom to be the center of my universe. I want to live to serve him.

I do have some specific interests, including DDlg/incest play but again, not interested in pacifiers or diapers. Just want a "Daddy" to worship. I like TPE dynamics that very much exist outside of the bedroom.

I am not looking for "some fun" I am not looking for someone to objectify. I am looking for a true, sustained connection.

All of that being said, I truly only feel this way for someone after a deep and true connection is established. Please do not contact me unless you understand this.

Maybe I will find you soon. I hope I do.