Without going into too much detail, I’ve been celibate for over a year following the end of my almost 3 year engagement. Outside of some very casual, barely pg13 sexless fun, I’ve been pretty bored and wanting to change that. 

If I had to describe my ideal dynamic, I would say being FWB’s with someone who has the potential to be my favorite person to spend my time with and we work our way from there. We may end up ditching the benefits and stay really good friends. We may end up with an awesome dynamic whether we are feeling intimate sometimes or platonic other times. We might wanna try something more down the road. All I’m really craving is intimacy with emotional trust. It doesn’t have to be love, but god do I miss feeling safe and free to be my unmasked self.

For more context, I am a heavily neurodivergent adult 🤠 additionally I have BPD which is why I tend to avoid romantic relationships altogether. I’m queer and genderfluid, masc leaning physically wanting to chase my femme era so bad. I love controversial conversations, I’m stupid political, leftist anti-capitalist type vibe. ACAB and anti-Apartheid down to my bones. And I’m indigenous south asian/Caribbean and I make sure everybody knows that. 

Ideally I want you to want to get to know me better yourself, but here’s some basics. I’m a big ol nerd (not big I’m 5’8 lol), I really love binging nerdy content with my comfort person. Book nerd, animanga nerd, tv show nerd. I really love creative outlets. Almost any art form interests me. I do a lot of writing. My autistic lizard brain hate social events but sometimes they are really fun. Don’t love most traditional sports, but I’ve been a boxer my whole life, I also really like climbing, spinning, and swimming. Universally always down to go on a walk :D and I really like cooking and will do it for you for fun

Sexually/kink wise I’m gonna save us some trouble and say yes. I’m what call a traumaslut, so on top of the mountain of trauma I have is a person who has either tried or is will to try damn near everything imaginable. My only limit is really don’t be super mean to me or degrade me cuz like I got verbally abused a lot and can’t handle that 🥲 but like we can bully each other cuz that’s cutee. I mean fuck it, call me your slut while you ride it and smother me in your chest but like in an “i want you” kinda way. Genuinely I am into everythinggg, every taboo, yes every taboo I fucking love and eat that crazy, nasty, kinky, sexy shit up. I’ve been a dominant for as ling as I’ve been dating (got exposed to this very early lol) but in reality with the right person I become stupid submissive and will call you mommy/mistress/goddess whatever term of affection means I get to be casually obsessed with you in my subspace which inevitably leads into my dom persona being very obsessed with you too.. i hope we can do a lot of taboos together. I really crave closeness and intimacy, physical touch, quality time, sweet words and praise. Even “casual” i need all of these things.

Also if I start to really like you imma be so weird. Asking for sloppy tongue sucking kisses. Ask to lick you all over like wanna give you tongue baths and taste you all the time. And eager to go down on you whenever you want. I got an oral fixation 😶 sneaking off with your dirty used underwear or gym clothes or something cuz I really like scent play. Asking to nurse on you while we cuddle up and sleep together, preferably while I’m still inside of you… and lots and lots of cnc where idc who is the dom i just need it bad. I’d start to want you to be as obsessive and possessive about worshipping me as I am about you like I wanna wake up to you burying your face between my legs to lick and sniff and drool all over me type of obsessive.

It sounds crazy but I want to be able to balance the lifestyle with a friendship. I know this could never be a truly conventional friendship. But even though we can’t keep both lifestyles separate I don’t want either to change my ability to be your friend and also be someone who cares about making you feel good and you making me feel good and us always feeling safe around each other.

If you’ve read this far, tell me if you think Luigi Mangione is hot lmao