I'm only looking for a dynamic partner, that's the extent of this. Not interested in a romantic relationship beyond our play.

Having more than kinks in common is an important quality in compatibility. I just work and sleep, that’s all my life feels like. I watch anime, try to draw when I have time and listen to edm, hiphop and kpop. Terrified for the future, find it ironic that people only accept a communal lifestyle or actions in times of crisis and have reached the point that I hate interacting with people. I only care if my family is taken care of, there's no saving the world anymore, Bats. I've always been a "good girl": good grades, obedient, raised in the church, etc. I'm stuck between wanting to find a new Master (I thought I'd outgrow being controlled but I feel so much worse on my own) and becoming my own Master because it's impossible to find a suitable match.

My compromise is finding my Architect. A Dominant that shares my vision and build something incredible. I'm a perfectionist and that ties into my long-term interest of bimbofication, or rather Barbiefication. She’s perfect without the sexual exaggeration. Undergoing cosmetic surgery, enduring that pain for the benefit of pleasing yourself and others? That means something to me. It's a sacrifice of comfort and risking safety. I admire that, it's a form of submission to your innermost desires and society's pressure to be looked upon more favorably. If you know anything about kpop stars, they're occasionally ordered to get surgery by their companies. Their weight is managed with weekly weigh-ins, their diets are so restricted, they practice for hours without breaks, they don't have complete say over their wardrobe, they're harshly criticized by the public and their fans for just about anything you can imagine; that’s my dream career. They're living truly submissive lifestyles: under the pressure of their company, their fans and probably their own team members. It's probably not entirely out of their hands but weighing the pros and cons of a certain decision, would it be worth it to give up the career and lifestyle they've fought so hard to achieve? Probably not.

That should give a good sense of what I'm looking for. I can't go and get surgery, so that leaves giving up control of my personal life, to an extent.

Clothing Control I work in healthcare so I can't wear anything outrageous; I must be professional. A classy and modest appearance, think: skirts, slacks, pantyhose, blouses, kitten heels, loafers, etc. I can go without a bra but not panties. Makeup can be done, I don't wear any now but it can be done. I don't tend to go out outside of work due to the exhaustion, but if there’s an opportunity I'd let you know. My wardrobe needs an overhaul so I really want inspiration, to see what you like or the concept you're thinking of instead of just being told to wear x, y,z because I can do that, I don't need a Dom for that. We'll both be involved in creating this new version of me. It has to be within reason: I'm not going shopping at Lululemon or Nordstrom.

It's also domination in the form of clothing. I wouldn't be wearing it if you hadn't told me. People will see me in an outfit, compliment me and obviously I wouldn't say, "My Dom picked this out for me," unless... kidding but I'll know. What I'm wearing won't be my choice, I had no say and showed up like this on someone else's orders. If that doesn't excite you, it's ok that this isn't for you. For me, though? It's already unraveling my mind a little.

Diet Control I have yet to meet anyone that cared about this aspect 😂. If anything, I need to be reminded that candy is not food. I don't eat a lot so it's not like I need to curb my eating habits. Anyway, if you have your own interest in this, we can talk about it.

Hobby/Career Control? Maybe you want to control what I do in my free time, too? As of right now, it's a few episodes of anime during my lunch break and the hours after I get home from work before bed. Sometimes a YouTube video. Any other influence, I'm open to hearing our ideas.

In Closing I can't be insuring work, only my lunch. Don't have a high sex drive, I masturbate once or twice a month and I'm serious. I'm under a lot of stress so I don't feel the urge or relief even if I turn to that. I have so much anxiety that I need something to break me out of that state, for example, I order my Uber before I'm dressed because I need that adrenaline to push me into action. I couldn't clean my bathroom without taking a shot. I don't really care for tasks, it's hard for me to stick to something like that because that’s all I'm faced with every day at work and home. I'm bratty, I'm going to push back but I don't want a severe punishment every time. I thought I didn't like punishments, they seemed boring and ineffective but spanking seemed to work when I felt a good connection to my dominant.

It's a little ironic but I don't have stability, I'd like a stable partner to ground me but I also need some chaos to stay intrigued. We don't need to start, we can vibe a bit and see if it works. Doesn't matter to me if you're a woman or man, just be a Dom or Dominant switch. Messages only, no chat.