Things can be so uncertain and boring all at the same time, can’t they? If you’re anything like me, increased stress - whether the good or bad kind, the personal or international - lights the fire in you for something excitingly abnormal.

I am a control freak, falling at either end of the spectrum. There’s something equally exhilarating in finding that I’m the one with no power as finding I’m the one with all the power. I’m very lucky and I have partners who allow me to sate the need to give up control, but as things shift around me I find myself yearning for a dynamic where the power lies more with me.

There’s something gently, softly intimate in my dynamics with subs that I crave. The intoxicating feeling as you slowly fall into obsession with me, the fragility in allowing you to, the warmth when we share the darkest parts of ourselves with no hesitation and find no judgement or fear in return. I want that again, and you do too. That doesn’t mean I’m gentle though. I can be cold, mean, vicious even. I don’t recommend myself for beginners.

I have a particular vision for this dynamic—I want to play with and explore feelings of safety and danger, for us both. There’s something enticing in the idea of a man twice my size kneeling before me, looking up at his goddess, at a time when it seems a good chunk of the world would rather relegate me back to incubator, property, slave. I am not solely interested in men, but admittedly it will be easier to play with the dynamics I’m hoping to if you possess some characteristics that might ‘traditionally’ make someone feel safe, protected, taken care of - whether that’s physical size, an outstanding emotional intelligence that lends itself to safety, a desire for an abnormal or asymmetrical commitment, or something else. You will know yourself better than I do, for now. If you can elicit those feelings in me, I’ll return and heighten them beyond your wildest dreams. It’s not unusual for my subs to become obsessive, addicted, and I can’t help but encourage it. If you struggle to reconcile the idea of my vulnerability and my power, then this post probably isn’t for you. I’m a sucker for tension though, and the idea of slowly breaking down a stupid misogynist appeals in different ways, so still get in touch if you want.

This would not be entirely about me and my vision, of course. Dynamics are best, in my experience, when they’re allowed to grow and develop organically, mapping their way across our brains and bodies, knitting our neural pathways together until they light up in union. My other existing interests include, but aren’t limited to, orgasm control/denial; cnc; chastity; cuckoldry; some pain, emotional and physical; and manipulation, gaslighting, conditioning. Bring your ideas for this dynamic to me succinctly and you’ll go to the top of the pile.

The world burning leaves us all with plenty to do, and I’m no different. I lead a relatively busy life and work perhaps more than I should. In that way I’m ideally looking for someone with similar availability, or at least who can handle mine. I’m around most days, sometimes for hours on end, others for a brief few minutes. The intensity and maturity of our dynamic obviously will impact the time I will make available for you, but if you’re the type who wants a 24/7 text buddy, I will only disappoint. If you’re reasonably local and can accommodate, I realistically could see you somewhere between fortnightly and monthly, but this is something for us to discuss as the relationship builds.

Other important things to know about me - as mentioned, I have multiple partners. It’s all consensual, boundaries are worked out collaboratively. I’m not averse to someone new to non-monogamy but I am well established in this way of life now and don’t have much patience for helping you work through any not-hot jealousy that might come up. Said partners may or may not be up for getting involved, if that’s something we’re all interested in. No guarantees, just a possibility. We can also find someone else if it’s central to your desires though. I am interested in something substantial and longer term, but wouldn’t refuse a short term connection with the right person and intensity. Do not expect it to build to a crescendo over days though. I work in weeks and months. You should too. Physically, I don’t think you’ll be disappointed but I also won’t be parading my body for you anytime soon anyway. I’m short and curvy, white, blonde, innocent- and cute-looking in an enjoyably deceptive way. Appearance is the least important thing about this for me. If we get serious, I’d expect us both to verify.

I’d usually put in a platitude about not underestimating me, especially if you’re the aforementioned misogynist, but it consistently goes ignored. I prefer chat over DMs, and interesting questions over essays or lazy openers. Be patient while you wait for my reply.