The realizations above can take a while. No matter how empty and hopeless you feel, you're still clinging to the idea of being able to make it on your own. Day after day, life is proving you wrong.

Still, it's scary to take action. There are so many people out there who just want to take advantage of your needs and issues, then toss you out when they're done squeezing as much out of you as they can, making you an even bigger mess than you were before.

Why would you take that risk? The answer is simple. You don't really have a choice, and deep down you know that. You can't function alone. You can survive, but you can't flourish. You can't be happy and fulfilled, you make shitty decisions and even before you do, you are constantly overwhelmed by the pressure they put on you. That's the harsh reality that made you click on this post the way it probably made you click on other similar ones before, and it will make you click others in the future. At a certain point though, you will have to stop reading and fantasizing about a better future. At a certain point you have to start writing and taking a risk. Tomorrow is a good day for that. Today is an even better one.

I'm not going to say that I can solve all your problems. You have already made too much of a mess out of yourself for that to be possible. Given enough time though, a lot can change. The world will be a less scary place when you don't have to deal with it all alone, when you don't have to deal with so many difficult decisions, and you will get properly reprimanded when you fuck something up. I will be your better, smarter half who is strict enough to bring the best out in you.

Of course, the devil is in the details. I'm not the nice mysterious stranger who will change your life for the better out of goodwill. If you expect to find someone like that, I have bad news for you. It's not going to happen. In fact, you will have to give everything for this to happen. Your body and your mind. Your freedom. The deepest submission you are able to provide. You will be tested, challenged, pushed, used and broken. When I've squeezed as much out of you as I can, I won't toss you out. I will keep squeezing, because you always have more to give. If you think this is unfair, you are right. You shouldn't have to sacrifice so much to change your pathetic fate, but that's the way it goes. The choice is difficult, but this may be the last one you have to make.