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I'm kinda struggling to figure out what to say but I'll try my best.I've been scared lately,scared of a lot of things,one of my fears is that I'll never get to experience love.I know its cheesy and its probably an irational fear but the truth is I'm an extremely shy,painfully socially anxious person.

I've been feeling lost and a little lonely lately.It feels like everyone I know has their life together and knows what they want to do while I'm just coasting along.Truthfully I might be experiencing a bit of burnout

I'd describe myself as emotional,suppourtive and passionate.I'm also pretty clingy(I'll probably send you daily good morning and good night texts and probably give off needy puppy energy) although it may take a bit for me to open up at first.I'm the kind of person who responds pretty much instantly to texts if that means anything.I prefer a quiet night in over a night out.My ideal date is probably just the two of us cuddling on the couch with a movie on in the background.I dont drink,smoke or do drugs(drugs are a total deal breaker for me).I'm also not religious but its totally cool if you are

I'm 5ft 10,a little chubby(though Ive lost some weight lately),dark hair and white.I'm that one guy you probably knew in class with a weird amount of comic book knowledge.

As for my type?I'm not overly fussy.I value emotional connection over physical attraction.I want a real,deep connection with someone I can say "I love you" to

Im looking for someone older because,to be honest,I just feel more comfortable talking to older women.I feel like its easier for me to be myself around them than it is around people my own age.I just feel safer with them in general

So thats me.Reach out if you think we might click.Id like more than just a "hi" if you decide to reach out though.Id prefer someone 5 years older at minimum.I know I didnt get too spicy in the post but Id prefer that stuff to come up naturally