Hello, I haven't written anything like this before, and I am new to here and Reddit as well, so please forgive me if I am writing this wrong. And, I am being brutally honest here, so it would be great if we could keep what we talk here just here.

So this is me: https://imgur.com/a/qhugF9w

And, a little bit about me: I am 18 and a girl. I am shy and introverted, and it takes for me to open myself up to a friend.

What I am looking for (I'll put more details later): I am looking for a man, preferably older than me by at least few years, who would discipline me, help me get myself organized and straight, and is gentle, intelligent, and firm.

So, a little background information is that I have a strange relationship with disciplines. I wouldn't go into too much details about it here, but I have been disciplined and spanked growing up.

And, I'm not sure if someone else experiences similar things, but you realize that you are a better version of yourself when you get disciplined, and without it, you don't feel protected or cared for and you start slacking off and have hard time keeping up with everything.

Also, there is a sort of cathartic element of spanking where you feel pain and get punished, and you feel better after...

So, I'm looking for a man that will discipline me and implement a structure in my life.

Here are some major things I'm currently struggling with the most now (It took me a lot of courage and struggles to be as open as this, so I would appreciate if you don't judge): - My sleep schedule; I tend to stay up late and wake up late. - Keeping up with my chores and homework; especially laundry, and I am letting even the intimate garments get dirty. - Controlling self- pleasure; I have been having a hard time controlling it, and I feel like it has became a distraction.

And, here are some disciplinary actions I am open to and used to, and I am down to try anything that you would find appropriate and effective (but, the only thing is that I would prefer to be clothed, at least have my under garments on, at the beginning, unless again you would think no clothes would be the best): - Spanking - Timeout - Ginger (for something serious)

And things I wouldn't be ok with are things that will hurt me permanently or bleed and that are unhealthy.

Oh, and also another thing to note is that I don't have a place of my own (I'm either with my roommate or family). So, that's something to be considered.

If you have any questions or want to know more about me, please let me know. I will try to be as honest as possible and answer anything that would help.

Thank you for reading my long post.