Had a rough day at work and I just want to feel useful. I’ve posted here several times before so please say ‘hi’ if you recognize me or have played with me before.
Mostly looking to chat but I’d also be happy to eventually play on voice.
I’ve been in the industry for just over a year now. I’m not talking OF, but mainstream porn, working with studios that book me through my agent. No, it wasn’t my dream job. I honestly didn’t expect I’d be doing what I do for a living. What hurts the most is that I chose to give up on college to do this.
I feel dirty and worthless. I hate seeing social media to see my old friends enjoying their college life. I hate being recognized in the street. I haven’t talked to my parents in a while.
It sucks and for some reason degradation makes me feel a bit better. Somehow someone making me feel even horrible about my situation and getting off to it makes me feel like I’m doing something useful. Perhaps that makes me fucked up.
I’m not looking for a ‘white knight’, so please don’t even bother reaching out if you are trying to tell me it’s going to be alright or give me life advices. I’m just looking for an emotional sadist to help me get through the night. I usually get a lot of people reaching out so please make your first message count. Chat preferred over messages.
PS. Any request for my stage name, real name or anything remotely related to revealing who I am will be swiftly blocked. I’m not trying to go viral here.
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