I never had a daddy dom since I have always felt unsafe, even with just online relationships, for I know that I highly value emotional connections while some people don't. However, I believe it's time that I lower my guard down just a bit because I must accept that part of caring for myself is recognizing that I need help, especially in nurturing this big (little) part of me or else my life will fall into chaos— which is not quite far from where I stand right now.

Hi! I'm 21, in school, brown skin, black hair, slim thin, at 5'2 ft. I'm two sides of everything: emotional and pragmatic, invested and detached, or sappily lovesick, yet busy with maintaining my "Miss Independent" front. Paradoxical, yes. Problematic? Maybe. And I can't predict which one I become in certain situations either so there's that to consider. Used to be at the top of my game as well, even when I always hated routines and structure, but now, I really seem to need assistance with it.

I learned about DDLG when I was researching about my own experiences of wanting to avoid big girl tasks to just read romance novels or watch Disney and Barbie movies all day. Six years later and I still do my best to suppress her, knowing I can't finish my tasks if I let it out so now, my little episodes are emotionally heavy and just burst out of me from being bottled up for so long. This, accompanied by my burnout, has now led me to motivation and discipline problems where I used to excel. This is where I think a daddy may help.

I have quite a list of preferences for what I'm looking for since I value relationships and want this to be for long-term (—because I'll miss you like a crazy, brokenhearted, female movie lead if you leave me too fast SKDHSJDBSN):

1) I'm NOT looking to date. I'm NOT looking for anything romantic or sexual. This is STRICTLY friendship and NSFW ONLY.

2) To avoid drama for our own peace of mind, please be 20-30 yrs old, super single (no attachments, not even with exes), and have no children (I'm sorry, it just feels wrong for me if an actual child calls you daddy). If this is not you then bye-byyyeee, thanks for your time!

I am also super single with no children, that's why I it feels right for me to expect this as well.

3) I prefer if we give ourselves time to get to know each other first outside of the dynamic for us to build trust and gauge if we truly want to commit with each other. I truly believe that if you can't at least like me while I'm big (then don't! not my problem hmp!) then you can't appreciate me while I'm little since she's more complicated tbh.

4) I know that this part is a problem for most but I'm still hoping that this resonates with someone too— please be the one to call. But I'm based in Asia so for most, the timezone will wreck us.

Other than being okay with the time difference, please be someone who naturally enjoys constantly being the one to reach out, to call. This is also tied to my gentle CNC kink where I am uncomfortable with asking for things (like writing this whole thing about my preferences huhu) so I like being forced to accept care and love as they make me feel cherished and wanted, such as forced to eat, to bath, to relax, etc.

Another reason for this is because my burnout extends to replying to texts and chats. There's even an inside joke within my friends that it takes at least 3 business days for me to reply. It messes with my head and takes soooo much of my already depleting energy just to reply to texts so to counter this, I prefer immediate calls and as last resort, voice records/messages.

Additionally, I am looking for a strictly online, voice calling dynamic as a strict safety regulation. This means I'm not interested in exchanging pictures or video calls (perhaps until I truly feel safe?? But knowing me, this may take years. I'm so sorry for this personal rule. It's dangerous out here and I just really have to take care of myself.)

Again, I really am sorry if these are deal breakers for you but I can't have it any other way and that's okay. There's billions of people in the world and I just need one person, just one, who accepts these preferences of mine. With that, if you are interested, kindly message with the words chicken and cheesecake along with your own preferences so I know you've read this whole ordeal that took me so long to write!!! So. you. better. acknowledge. it!!!!

I know finding you will take time but I'm not in a rush, especially with things that need utmost care. I already trust that you are out there somewhere. Maybe the universe thinks we're not even ready to meet yet. So for now, I'll just continue doing my best to look after myself, and I hope you do the same for you too, until we cross each other's paths. (See, I told you I'm sappy and emotional!!!)