About 10 years ago I was on a semesters long study abroad trip; new place new roommate etc. Because I didn’t know my roommates schedule I went two weeks without making myself cum- which was probably the longest I’d gone since I began masturbating.

One night around the two week mark I felt this surge of saved up sexual energy go down from my stomach to my cock/ genitals. It was almost like when you have diarrhea and you feel it hit you really quickly. I’m not trying to be gross but that’s literally the most similar sensation I can compare it to. This was the only time in my life I felt like I NEEDED to cum and went to the bathroom to do just that; subsequently having the second best orgasm of my life.

I find that people generally use the term “sexual awakening” a little too loosely but for me this really was. Such an intense sexual urge also awakened what I can only describe as sexual aggression. The fantasy that immediately came to mind was me holding a woman down on my bed and fucking her from behind.

I really had never fantasized doing that before and frankly had been a pretty “nice guy” before this incident. What I mean by that is if I had been with a woman who told me to stop I would have immediately and been as nice as possible; making sure she felt safe and comfortable. After this event/ being in this head space, while I 100% would still stop if a woman told me to I’d be agitated; telling her to get the fuck out of my house/ apartment and not to come back until she was wet and ready to fuck me.

I have some experience with this: my ex was willing to experiment but couldn’t last past a few cracks with a belt and I saw a woman 3/4 times a few years ago who was VERY into spankings and had a very impressive tolerance.

Make no mistake, consent is very important to me for the protection of both of us and I will respect it. The establishment of a safe word is an obvious prerequisite to our experience/ experimentation. I also want to make clear that this is a relatively small aspect of my sexuality and comes from a place of wanting to be aggressive/ in control not from a place of hatred or a desire to do harm. I that makes sense.

So this is me and what I’m looking for. If it sounds like something you’d be interested in feel free to reach out. Open to a long term D/S dynamic. Generally can’t host as I have a roommate but could get us a hotel room once a week if neither one of us can host. Physically I’m 6ft about 260 so a bigger guy. I know that’s not everyone’s cup of tea so just want to be upfront about that. I don’t mind if you’re a little overweight but part of my kink is that I want to be in physically in control so ideally you are smaller. Also, goes without saying you need to be 18

Kinks: spanking, faux resistance, aggressive pussy/ throat fucking, forced multiple orgasms, breast play, restraints (after trust is established of course).

Limits: non sexual fluids, crying, age play, saying “no” (ill consider this synonymous with your safe word) choking (I don’t mind holding your throat while fucking you but not looking to squeeze any harder than that necessitates)