TLDR; I am looking for CNC pet play.

My life is boring. It's fine, but it's boring. A well paying high status job, that I despise and feel only misery about. A loving and loyal husband, who never makes me orgasm. Years of reading kinkier and kinkier erotica and putting myself into the protagonist's (victims?) shoes and wanting to know what it's like.

The problem is, as much as I crave humilation and submission, I'm terrible at giving up control. I can't get out of my own head. I can't get my husband to treat me how I need, and I'm even worse when it comes to trying to meet someone on Fetlife or the like. I'm starting to worry I'll never do this voluntarily.

And that's where you come in. Did reading my sob story about how hard it is to be a successful attractive woman make you want to tear me down a peg? Perhaps you want to punish me for straying from my marriage. Perhaps you feel like after a weekend in your basement, I'll appreciate what I have. Maybe you just happen to think all women are dogs in human clothing. Regardless, I want to be lured to your lair for hardcore petplay.

The training aspect is important to me. I'm less interested in just sex, although I'm sure there will be plenty of that. I want true humilation and degradation. Kept naked and on all fours, collared and leashed. Eat and drink out of bowls. Pee outside. Do tricks and bark. It's only a weekend, but brainwashing is extremely hot - I'm sure you'll have a new, more appropriate name in mind for me.

Verification and safewords and limits (permanent harm, scat, blood, vomit) and all that can be discussed, as can the meeting and activities. For example, I don't particularly crave being in a car trunk, but if it makes you more likely to do me doggy style go nuts. Or I can just show up and wind up your thrall.