Hello,

I'd like to start off with saying that I know this post is on the extreme end of the spectrum. Regardless of what it may seem like, consent and our mutual safety are my top priorities.

I am a 38 year old male, approximately 5'9'' tall with a husky build. I am well educated, I have a great career, a good sense of humour and in public I am very normal looking person, who girls describe as cute and/or handsome and noone would ever suspect I have such dark proclivities. On the inside, I am a broken, deprived, damaged and perverted sexual deviant looking for someone who is just as depraved and with an unhealthy amount of deep-seated daddy issues.

You are a cis-female who is broken and damaged beyond repair. Someone who has an unbelievable amount of trauma. Someone with an incredibly low self-esteem but has an obsession to please and gain approval, your ultimate pleasure is pleasing your partner. You are someone who has had unmentionable things done to her. Someone with a history of abusive romantic relationships, an abusive childhood. Maybe you even got into sex work, or were trafficked, or were addicted to substance or had eating disorders. Perhaps you were heavy into self-harm ( I find self harm scars unbelievably sexy) You are, plain and simply, BROKEN.

You are addicted to your trauma. You seek to relive your trauma. But you also want someone to not judge you. You want someone who will love you and not leave you. You want someone to just accept you as you are and not try to fix you. You want the abuse but then you also want someone to cuddle and hold you tight.

Ideally, I would like to find someone in the same geographic location as me, but I am not opposed to someone further away. However, I would like to make it clear that I am not looking for an online dynamic. If you contact me, please be open to travelling (costs shared) to meet in a relatively short time.

BDSM scenarios can be discussed later but some of my kinks include:

Impact play and beating

cutting and scars

Watersports - treating you as a urinal and making you drink it

Breath play

Sadism

Cockwarming, long blowjobs

Bondage

Humiliation, degradation and bodyshaming

Freeuse

As stated above, your safety is of the utmost important therefore your limits will be respected and safeword established.

Please include your favourite colour in your subject line so I know you read the entire post.

Hope to hear from my fellow damaged and broken friends.