I’ve always held my own without complaint. I can keep up the household, have my fulfilling career, and navigate my social life with relative ease. I don’t mind getting my hands dirty, or hiring someone else if the project is beyond my capabilities. I’m told that my personality is easy to get along with and that I make a good leader - I never have trouble making friends where I go.

But God am I tired of being in control.

I lay in bed and dream about you. You, my equal. You see submission as a gift, and the utmost sign of dedication to you. It’s not a game to be won or a prize to show off. Your ownership of me is quiet and calm. Respected, the way that old money is respected over new. It doesn’t need to be flaunted.

You, my equal. I see your dominance as a blessing. You know I’m capable, but you care for me enough to take that weight off of my shoulders. I know my hand is not forced. I know your love is not conditional to my compliance. Still, I give in to you with complete veneration. I want my world crafted by your hands.

And it’s not about sex. It’s fine. Sex is wonderful. Our chemistry there is as natural as the rest. The real fulfillment between us comes in the subtle ways you shape me. I’m terrible at meeting people’s eyes, so you remind me to look into yours until it’s become second nature. My mind is always loud, but you help me to slow down. Where I lack discipline, you step in to find it for me. And each time, I eagerly defer to you, knowing that despite my strong-headedness, you know best.

Time and time again, I’ve searched for you. I wrestle with myself, wondering if I’m dreaming of a person who doesn’t exist. In the end, I know that if my soul is meant to love, it’s meant to love you. If I’m still here, it’s because you still exist somewhere in the world, waiting for my worship.

Pertinent details: 25 . Monogamous. Long-term. USA/Florida, or open to relocation here within reason. Should tolerate cats and like children. Limits and preferences are outlined here, but my search is not inherently sexual in nature, and hook-up style messages won’t be acknowledged.