You clicked on this post because you are seeking that intense psychological bond with a man that makes you forget your world. You want to wander into his mind, a space that both mystifies and yet feels inexplicably safe. You want to be gripped, both figuratively and physically, in the strong hold of this man that is both scary and yet seductive. You are too afraid to get hurt but secretly want it to hurt...just a little, just for him. You have too much love in your heart to offer, and yet no one worthy enough to offer it to. You want it all and you want him to want all of you. You want your heart to race for him and feel a loss of control over yourself, to lose yourself for him, in the safety of his presence. You want to go to scary places with him, that you wouldn't dare to go alone. A man that is inherently scary and yet makes you feel safe from all else that is scary. Ultimately you want a man that seems too self-contradictory to exist outside of your imagination. Someone who is just as full of contradictions as yourself, but comes with all the parts you're missing.

If you're both enamored by the description and nervously scared by the prospect, then you might just be the one I'm seeking.

If you see me out there in the open, I might easily pass off as a normal, clean, polished and professional man who knows how to be courteous and blend in. If you're perceptive, you might see that there's a lot more to me than what meets the eye. If you happen to notice that there's a depth to me that is very consciously hidden to all those who aren't ready for it, and recognize yourself in such a predicament, then we might just be able to meet eye to eye.

Depth is what my soul is thirsty for. Parched, in fact. I'm the kind to want it all, or not at all. Depth, intensity and passion are what I live for, in anything I do. What I want in love, intimacy and bonding is no different.

If you're the kind of woman I'm attracted to, I'll inevitably come across as intimidating. There's a primal energy in me that seeks a predator-prey relationship. You might have gotten a sense of it in the number of times I used a variation of the word fear, in my opening monologue above. Sexual intimacy is incomplete for me if I cannot establish a predator-prey bond. A fundamentally contradictory yet symbiotic bond where we both feel safe in being our deep-seated primal selves.

Let's face it, if you were to be the most vulnerable, most truthful version of yourself, you're gonna be shredded to bits by society because you wouldn't pass for what qualifies as a "strong, independent woman". You know how to convincingly pass off as that thing people expect you to be. You'd know, because you've done that all your life. You know how to engineer their perception of you. You're the expert. But if you couldn't not be alone in being yourself, with a man who can both understand you and also consume you at the same time, all of this charade would be for nothing.

As for physical description, I'm 6ft tall, working on getting shredded, medium length hair, sharp penetrating eyes, trimmed facial hair, stoic face.

If you're still here, reading all this and sitting there with an elevated heartbeat and just a tinge of wetness between your thighs imagining the prospect of what I'm talking about, talk to me.

Send me a message with the following:-

1. Age, physical description (height, shape, hair color/length)
2. What made you want to respond?
3. Would you consider yourself a masochist? If yes, tell me more.
4. Based on what you've read on this post, what's the one thing about you I'd want to know to find you attractive?
5. Ask me a question, anything.

tags - INTJ, Capricorn

PS - I've added the location as online because I would like to keep things online for a while to assess whether we are a good match, but eventually I would want us to meet. Location doesn't matter to me.