Hi. I'm just an awkward person who's always felt confused and intimidated about how to get into this stuff. My dream is to be someone's full time servant. Someone who knows better than anybody how to please them in all of their favorite ways. Who waits on them hand and foot even in day to day life. I'm in NJ and I want that now. But I don't know that I'm ready. But I wanna explore my kinks with somebody. A friend or maybe even a mentor or something who might have fun teasing me or role playing or taking some power to boss me around or even just talking about these things. Something low pressure, whether it turns into something far more devoted when we're ready, or you just want a toy to play with for now. Tell me your intentions and what commitments you'd need from me for you to be comfortable. I'm open to a monogamous commitment only to serve you even if we don't call it a relationship or it's not reciprocated. I want what is most enjoyable for you first. That's kinda my whole kink.

Now who am I? I consider myself NB to avoid any confusion or expectation. I tend to prefer feminine identifiers and things. But I am male and not on any hormones or anything. I have a masculine face I can't really hide even if I like to present feminine. I'm 5'4", a little flabby(185), not huge or anything and trying to get skinny. I consider myself Christian but left leaning politically. I do non financially stable gig work, I play video games, I try to read when I can. Not big into tv or movies. I love yoga, I love the rain and running around in it and I like to flow with a pixel whip. I'm very talkative and have a lot of hot takes. I love my friends and family and aspire to be kind to everyone but I can get very passionate about certain things. My life isn't really together and that's why I don't expect to jump into a relationship. But Im determined to get it together and be there for others and not drag them down. I just hope to find someone to share my journey with. I know front loading my introduction with problems isn't conventionally attractive. But I wanna be upfront and if you can't handle bluntness and confusion and long windedness, we prolly won't get very far anyway.

Yes I do have a randomly generated user name. Honestly, I made this account to be able to engage with porn and not have it tied to know aliases of mine. And I didn't wanna wait to make a new account to put myself out there. I know reading the pinned post that this is a red flag... But I'm not here to ask you for money, nor do I have much to give. I'm happy to be transparent with who I am and make you confident about it, and idc about pics or my kinks getting out there enough to be blackmailed with it. I'm just looking to meet someone and find companionship.

What are my kinks? I like to be degraded and teased. I guess gently to some extent, but some things I like may be seen as more extreme. Big on orgasm denial, being used and domestic servitude. Big on control and obedience. I like pain, but not extreme pain. I'm not really into whips or chains or leather. I have some fixation with fabric and might not even ask for nudes, though I am interested and would want to be used to give head. I wanna pamper and wash and worship and massage feet. I wanna be bullied and teased. But I also want to be cherished and cuddled and kissed. I wanna feel flustered and embarrassed and confused and overwhelmed with arousal that goes long ignored and make you feel like the most desired thing in the universe, and to be used and taken advantage of in that state to fulfill your dirtiest fantasies and to remain in it as I'm cuddled to sleep or sent off to clean and serve you snacks. I'm open to a lot of different kinks and obviously can't go through everything, but I'll try to get into whatever you like so long as it's not a hard limit. Of course we cannot do this stuff over the internet if you're on the other side of the world, but I hope it gives you some idea where my head is at and what makes me tick.