For the last 4 years, I’ve hidden my edging/gooning addiction from my gf. She’s never liked porn but, I haven’t learned to live without porn/hentai since dating her. Like most people, I started watching porn in my youth. My addiction only became apparent when I discovered certain hypnosis videos. Now I can’t stop watching…

I often have thoughts about being forced to edge myself and becoming a woman’s plaything. These thoughts don’t go away and I would rather embrace them than fight. I want to be trained by a feminine superior; someone who will tell me when to edge, how to pose/dress for nudes and also when to cum. Anal training and chastity are also on the table (I have a few toys & a cage).

I have an urge to be humiliated for exposing myself and being praised for being obedient. Think of me as your personal boy-slut. I have a slim build and I'm a young healthy stud.

When I am alone, I edge myself for long periods without cumming; even holding it in for days at a time. If I actually try to stay away from porn and I’m alone at home, I always have to pretend I don’t want to jerk off.

I have no means to kick this habit for good. There are too many triggers around me to deny my desires. I cannot talk about it with anyone irl. I feel like it’s pointless trying to fight it off. So many lewd thoughts enter my mind and I cannot share them with anyone.

I have to stop torturing myself with denial and guilt and let a womanly figure take control of my urges for her pleasure. I want to give control to someone who wants me needy and horny for them. I want my habit to be nurtured. My only limit is extreme self-harm and scat-play. I am very open minded. You can see how I look on my profile. Please don’t be hesitate to share what you really think of me. I enjoy brutal honesty. Thank you for reading!