Hello I'm 23, 6ft 4 (195cm) and a sweet innocent cute faced guy with red cheeks and great thick hair. I have broad-ish shoulders and a fairly athletic build, I have green eyes and brown hair in the winter but blonde hair in the summer. I have well-formed hands that are buttery soft and rich with veins.

I have a variety of outfits because I like to look good, I keep myself clean and like to exercise. Personality wise I am friendly and happy on the surface, I would describe my personality as natural excitement, am very interested in others and their goals and dreams and am always supportive. When it comes to my own hard work and achievements I can be a deep thinker and planner and often spend time alone while I focus on something. Some things I like are animals, travelling, documentaries, books, manga, I spend my free-time writing, reading, baking and learning martial arts.

Ideally I am looking for a relationship out of this rather than just a play partner. My ideal type is someone kind and smart and would want to be controlling, clingy and possessive. But honestly it does get dark.

I will say from the start, I’m not into heavy pain, chastity, other guys, forced bi/gay, scat, heavy bleeding. So why someone depraved?

Well… what I’m into is arguably a lot worse.

I wouldn't expect even the small majority to understand, but for those that have held themselves back in a relationship, for fear for their partners mental health, or because of their own toxicity, this post might be for you.

I am a sub who would describe themselves as having a hard shell. But under the surface, I'm an extremely submissive free-use toy.

If you've ever been worried you're overbearing in a relationship or clingy, then you might just be my type.

My ideal partner would be someone who could tap into being unhealthily clingy. I've experienced it once with a woman, and its the only thing that I can still think about that makes my heart throb. Nothing would fill me with more submissive joy than to receive 50 text messages in an hour. Or several missed phone calls. This isn't just me wanting to feel powerful, and like girls are chasing me, it's actually the opposite. I want to feel trapped. My heart would throb even more if my partner didn't let me go to the toilet myself, and she had to follow me. Or if you handcuffed your wrist to mine when we sleep so I couldn't run off in the night.

Don't apologise for being clingy. If clingy is who you are, then you can embrace it with me. The more clingy you are, the more I will like you.

If I haven't snuggled deeper into you in the past 2 minutes and you want to get angry at me, then get angry at me.

Another ideal trait for my mommy would be into consensual non-consent for their sub. I said earlier I'm a free use toy. My body will be yours more than mine. With consensual non-consent, you can do anything you want to me whenever you feel like it without having to ask or seduce. If we're watching TV and you want to put your hand down my pants, or spit in my hair, or you want to finger yourself and put that finger in my mouth, then you can do it. Or if I'm sleeping and you want to taste and suck my dick even though I'm unconscious, then you can do it. You don't need to ask or worry yourself. Or maybe even you want to make me so drunk that I blackout so you can ride my dick and get creampied while I'm out cold. You can do that too. I want you to do all these things and more when I'm you're free use toy.

Combining clinginess with consensual non-consent, maybe you are someone with a love language of touch. You wouldn't ever have to worry about being overbearing, you can let your hair down with me. If you'd feel better at night sleeping with my dick in your hand, or my dick in your mouth, or my mouth on your boob, or your fingers in my ass, or anything like that, then you can do that.

The md/lb aspect I absolutely love. I have a huge thing for being manipulated, coerced, forced, encouraged, corrupted, gaslit, dumbified, misinformed and lied to. Now would be your real chance to let your hair down as a depraved mommy-domme by using all of the above to consume me, making me live more in your shadow. Making me completely yours. Maybe you’d re-educate me about my consent and my body or about life in general and my place in it.

Sentences that you might say to me:

‘Huh? What do you mean no? If your dick is hard it means mommy can have sex with you’

‘It’s perfectly normal for mommy to want to get you drunk so she can fuck you easier.’

‘Aww sweetie, mommy decided to suck your dick in your sleep last night so that would explain your wet dream’

‘Shhh… shhh… remember what mommy taught you? You don’t need to give consent. So just relax and stop putting up a fuss.’

‘Did you know, sex where you’re not giving consent is actually great for your mental health? Its true! Mommy wouldn’t lie to you.’

‘What do you mean? It’s perfectly normal for mommy to watch you and grope you as you use the toilet even if you’re embarrassed.’

‘Why don’t you touch yourself while mommy watches otherwise mommy will hurt you.’

‘Trust me baby boy you say no now but it will feel so good cumming deep inside mommy’s pussy. There is no better feeling than having your cum stolen from you.’

I'm having to live with these urges to be used and abused in distasteful ways. I have tried to ignore them but ultimately I am not satisfied or happy in a relationship.

If you're living with your urges to use and abuse in the ways I've described, then maybe we'll make a good pair.

As I said before, I have a hard shell, so nobody in my life that I know would expect this from me. I will continue to have a hard shell as that is who I am, and on the surface it may look like we have a vanilla relationship. I don't really know what my point is, but maybe this will reassure you if you're scared of your urges but can't resist following them. Nobody would know, but inwardly, you can be yourself with me.

I’m basically a sex slave without their shackles yet, so why don’t you put them on me, yell at me for being absent from your life all this time until I cry, and then reward me with deep melty kisses while I’m feeling incredibly guilty

Remember, the more confused you make me, the harder I’ll cum

This has been a ramble but if I have no luck, I will keep searching this in the future. Obvious turn offs are: blood, gore, scat, piss, vomit, violence, bestiality, anything illegal etc.

My kinks are extensive but I'll share all I can think of for now: cnc, mommy-domme, md/lb, femdom, breastfeeding, praise, clinginess, reassurance, regression, coercion, forced-regression, manipulation, lying, gaslighting, corruption, humiliation, degradation, dumbification, tpe, 24-7, free-use, teasing, edging, orgasm control, orgasm denial, begging, facesitting, worshipping, full-body-worship, gooning, triggering, hypnosis, mindbreak, kidnapping-play, cum-milking, body-writing, cum-stealing, creampies, drunk sex (drunk/blacked out sub, sober dom), sleeping sex (awake dom, sleeping sub), pegging, prostate massage, rimming, bondage, handcuffs, collar & leash, using mommy, mommy-cum-dump

If this post has disgusted you, I'm sorry. But there is someone out there who will see this and needed to have seen it