queer people i love you so much!!! straight men- i am not a woman and i will probably only engage with you if we seem particularly compatible

hi there, i tend to go by paradise! i’m 23, nb, they/she pronouns. i am looking to be dominated, degraded, bullied, abused, manipulated, etc. most of my kinks are fairly trauma oriented and are more psychological in nature and so if you aren't into darker play i'm probably not your cup of tea!!

primarily i want you to make me feel small and scared. i want you to embarrass me. i want you to manipulate me. i want you to have power over me. i've been in a lot of abusive situations in the past and there's something about them that feels familiar and safe- honestly it gets me high. i'm in the healthiest place that i've ever been in my life but still all i can think of is how much i want other people to hurt me. that's where you come in.

i'm primarily looking for online play at fist, but if we really click, i live in a major northeastern city and live within a reasonable distance of most of the other major northeastern cities.

i'm mainly looking for chatting and rp at first- if i like you i'd be comfortable sending you audio files but my mic isn't great. sending nudes, videos, face pics, video chatting - all of that requires a foundation of trust. i want to be clear that what i am looking for is primarily sexual in nature and i am not looking for an online romantic relationship or anything monogamous.

about me

• 23 years old, nb femme, they/she pronouns, gemini, mad ptsd and super fucking autistic <3
• platinum blonde hair eyebrows, cool alt hair cut, doe eyes, freckles, 5'7, 34DDD, athletic curvy, recently pierced nipples, hyperfemme, unconventional style but conventionally attractive
• super artsy. university student studying dramatic writing. creative writer and collage artist. fairly involved in my citys underground music poetry scene
• recently entered my jock era this year! big on yoga, hiking, rock climbing <3
• personality wise i'm a little all over the place. i tend to have a very sweet disposition, and am shy yet bubbly and am pretty eager to please. i'm also intelligent, well spoken, and am kind of a bitch at times! there are a lot of sides to me, i'm sure there are a lot of sides to you as well! i'm kind of a weird combo of incredibly cool yet incredibly dorky that'll probably only make sense when you get to know me

kinks

• cnc (irl and non-rp online play), noncon/dubcon (rp only), forced intox, manipulation, degradation, humiliation, grooming, orgasm control, sadism <3 <3 <3 <3 <3, blackmail, crying, begging, gaslighting, namecalling, choking, hairpulling, being physically overpowered, fear, bondage, praise, overstimulation, misogyny, painal, ableism, soft affectionate reassuring noncon oh my fucking god, brat breaking

limits

• scat, parent/child incest, age stuff, abdl, ddlg, death, calling cis men "daddy", pregnancy, [vore/inflation/weird fantasy shit]

please know that i approach the topics of any kind of consent play as someone who has experienced a plethora of sexual abuse irl and so i may portray a more accurate representation of a victim response than you'd used to/comfortable with.

i'm trying to make space where i can indulge some of my bad impulses without it interfering with my real life and relationships (trying not to shit where i eat, yknow?) - hopefully i can offer something similar for you. if you have a sadistic streak or a lot of anger you don't know what to do with- i might be able to help. but i want to be clear about one thing. i am not just offering you power over me: you have to earn it.