(Before reading please be aware the this is a fairly old post that I posted months ago and took down, I just wanted to repost to have it connected to my profile again to get across what I feel a perfect dynamic is because, that has not changed. The only thing that has is probably the initial approach, which I’ll explain in a fresher post if you check my account for that update) ^{^}

This feels scary but, I also have this tingling feeling that I’m in the right place to look for the dynamic I’m desperately craving for once.

I’ve been in the lifestyle for a very short amount of time. 4 almost 5 years? I’ve only had two Doms in real life- both who seriously have traumatized me so, if I’m being honest- online is a bit scary for me especially after the handful of fake ones I have run onto in the past few months.

After having multiple bad experiences or ones that suddenly ended I am here because, despite the bad, being a submissive, giving up control- rather it be in the bedroom or out- making my Dom happy and allowing him to shape me into the best me I can be, not only for myself but, to his liking and pride too, while I also encourage Him and support him by his side is honestly a feeling I know I will never ever get out of a normal relationship. This is a connection I crave with my whole heart- and I know I’d be stupid if I let it go over a few dropped apples.

So, some things about myself: I’m a single mom. I like to start there because I realize it’s not exactly ideal for most Doms and I’m not here to waste anyone’s time, including my own. I’m a student but, I’ve put that on pause currently to work towards a different goal that has become more of an important priority which I am more than willing to share in a more private conversation! ❤️

I really enjoy reading, I often bounce back and forth from chapter books to manwhas quite often. I have a huge obsession with AIs at the moment- I can talk about them all day and how they have opened my eyes to a whole new world of literature, writing, and so many possibilities. I also enjoy writing obviously. 🙂

I’m a huge gamer, probably far more huge than I’d like to admit. I don’t have a huge preference on if my Dom is so, if he is, ask me about the games I play! Maybe we can spend time together that way every now and then!

Amongst other things, I’m interested in singing, I’m a huge horror fan, I have interest in instruments, and I’m more of a house cat. I’m more of a leave at home sub that will cook and clean and go about their day indoors while Masters away.

Im looking for a dynamic that is built on an honest feeling, not forced just because we fit the same lifestyle or dynamic. I’m looking for mutual attraction and mutual endearment. I want to find interests in my Doms hobbies, what he talks about, what he likes, and cheer him on in his greatest achievements with sincereness and I want the same from them. There’s a lot more to the dynamic as a lifestyle than kink even though kink is a huge part of it for me as well. I want to endear my Dom, for him to find interest in me, because this is the only way I know he is pleased and happy.

I’m not much of a brat. When I have a Dom, he becomes my entire universe outside of my young. My happiness, safety, and my growth is all dependent on him. I am a very attached sub and he will become the only one I see and when he tells me to close my eyes… I just will.

Onto personality, I am very much a bubbly and actively hyper kitten. I tend to get into trouble quite often without guidance so, I need it constantly and am more than willing to take it. I’m very self-aware and I know where and when I’ve done wrong half the time and can admit it. But, I also tend to be very unaware of others and situations which is where the trouble part comes from.

I may start off shy but, once I’ve gotten comfortable with the Dom I decide to see as my leader and Master, I tend to be a total chatter box so, don’t let the consistent quiet at the beginning scare you away. It’s only temporary.

My Doms personality would be someone who is confident and willing to put in the time and effort into me in the same way he puts into himself. A sub is an extension of their dom and will usually take after them in those ways, good and bad :p

He is someone who is consistent, caring, stern, warm, and intelligent but, will not take it lying down from his sub or anyone else. He can be a sadist, a soft dom, or a really strict one. I’m more of a sub who follows the lead of whichever personality type and I’m pretty good at adapting to any of these.

If any of that sounds like you, you may be exactly it for me.

I am not so comfy with posting NSFW kinks for everyone to see and look at and I am also being extremely careful with my words so I do not attract the wrong kind of Dom. But, I am comfortable to say that my kink level and drive are very high and desirable - for long-distance I have a lovesense, and for the main part I am a rope kitten! And I LOVE beards. Outside of the bedroom I am full submissive but, inside I will consistently challenge my Dom to put me in my place.

My physical features are attractive as far as I’ve been told but, I’m not one for having a huge ego, I’m 5’5, mixed race. I do cosplaying and content creating so, I am more than comfortable and willing to show what I look like instantly!

I breathe sleep and long to be near my Dom so, I’m very needy, clingy and affectionate- I sometimes will overdo it but will obey when being redirected. I have experience with being given tasks, rules, schedules, and I’m usually pretty swell about it as long as they’re not sudden.

If any of this sounds like something you’d be interested in or you have a questions shoot me a DM! Maybe ask me about something more personal to you!

Please do not DM me with instant NSFW or a simple hi, this will not endear me to respond. You have subs looking for only NSFW as well- so, I don’t see the point of seeking out a sub looking for an actual lifestyle partner 🥲