I am not sure how I should start this.

I would love to tell you what I have been dreaming about for a long time. But i am unsure how I can make it a reality. I keep running away from the things I really want.

I really love bdsm with my heart and soul, and the few times I got to actually live it, I loved everything about it. I especially love Bondage … I can’t even really get off without it. I love submitting to someone, I love when I get bullied and made fun off. I love when someone hurts me and I can’t do anything about it. I want these things … I want them more.

I want to find a person who does these things to me and with me. But I am not sure how to get there. I am having social anxiety, and I am slow to really open up and trust people. So usually when I try these sort of posts it either moves way to fast for me and I panic and get pushed away quickly or it ends up going no where.

What I would love is maybe find a friend … with who I could to this together, who will be my Dom. Someone who has the patience to deal with me and my anxieties. Honestly I wish for something more, I would love to fall for someone …. but I suck at the dating thing. (Also always to fast for me)

I know I have some strengths too!

• I am adorable
• Kind of weird
• Funny (if you share my weird humor)
• I am kind and caring and pretty chill!
• I am pretty good at communicating (I know i have some issues but being aware of them is part of that)
• Very Kinky (if we can get there)

More about me!

Well I am kinda a chronically online person >~< Kinda have to admit that, but i avoid social media. I am super nerdy! I love Video games! (as well as card and board games) I love Anime (tho i am not a full on weeb just yet) I enjoy manga, manhwa and web comics. And i do think those things are the way to my heart and a way to get comfortable with you. Like playing a game together or watching a show. Things like that.

I like to cook and draw but don’t do it often enough. I am a trans girl who is fairly far into the transition process. So I am pretty Fem. I like to dress a bit alt, but my anxiety comes up again and I don’t do it as much as I would like too.

I think … if we really manage to get there … you being my Dom, I will adore you more than anything. I will be endlessly loyal and hopefully share a deep bond. I think getting there will be not that easy, I feel so complicated. I am good at hiding my insecurities, at being outgoing and talkative even tho I find it hard and exhausting and burn out. I talk big and though and hide my insecurities by being way to open about all sorts of of things. I am hiding myself by being very open and vulnerable about all sorts of things of things, to hide the things I am really anxious about.

These are my honest feelings, I am unsure if that will sort of post will appeal to people or not. But if what i wrote sounds nice to you, and you want to try being my Dom feel welcome to write me! Tell me about your childhood video game! (if you have one) If you don’t I will ignore your request as well as low effort messages with one or two sentences. I really don’t have the energy for that.

If anyone is reading this far, thank you! And no matter what you are searching on here, Good Luck!