Hi - apologies in advance for the long post.

I'm a new and inexperienced sub looking for a patient yet strict Dom who would be willing to take the time to guide/mentor/train me into becoming the perfect sub for you. This would be for a potential long term dynamic, online initially with the possibility of meeting in IRL so if you're UK based that would be a bonus.

A little about me... I'm in a very vanilla LTR (DB/roommate situation) and have children. Although I have always wanted to explore my darker side I have never been in a position or with someone where I have felt comfortable or safe enough to explore these desires due to rejection/judgement. I'm pretty much the type of person who you would never guess has these dark desires/wants. I'm quite shy and introverted, at least initially until I get to know you. Trust is very important to me. I run scared a lot of the time so definitely would need pushing and a firm hand. Although I am naturally submissive I do have a career and interests in my life that I am passionate about and want to succeed in. I do have non-kink personal goals that I would like to achieve and be held accountable for in this dynamic. I'm 40, 5ft3, UK size 12/14, dark blonde/light brown hair and blue eyes. Kink-wise there are many I would like to explore that I would feel more comfortable to discuss over DM or chat. I absolutely love praise and being told when I've done well and been a good girl. My limits would include blood, vomit, scat, knife play, permanent damage, age play and anything illegal.

About you... Experience and patience! You genuinely enjoy teaching and mentoring. You like to care for and nuture your sub. This is top priority for me. You're not only a Dom but also a friend and confidant. You have a sense of humour and are willing to talk about life in general and also have deep or fun conversations outside of sexual topics. You are intelligent and articulate, emotionally available, transparent and a very good communicator. Similar age or older than me, preferably in a similar domestic situation (LTR/married/family) and you understand the need for discretion. Not a dealbreaker but I am more attracted to taller/bulkier guys because they make me feel safe and protected.

Ultimately I want to create a safe space and dynamic that is mutually fulfilling, meaningful, enjoyable and adventurous for the both of us. I'm looking for a special connection and love the idea and feeling of belonging/being owned and serving someone for their pleasure, relinquishing control and having rules and structure in a relationship

Happy to share a sfw pic once we have chatted as I understand mutual physical attraction is important.

If you got this far, thanks for reading :-)