Hello,

I'm never sure how to begin something like this, I suppose it's with passionate enthusiasm? This will be a long read.

I'm lonely, surprise surprise. I'm unfulfilled by the interpersonal relationships that I currently have with friends and family and I realize that I'm missing a crucial influence in my life; namely a Domme. I'm a little under a year out of a divorce werein the last year of the separation was a long decline in emotional and physical intimacy that came down to personal incompatibility, due to how we'd grown in life. I am overcoming the obstacles I created for her through therapy, sobriety and a focus on improving my physical health.

All this to say two things:

One, I am struggling with my desire to self improve. I feel a consistent sense of self doubt and I do not see the progress others say I am making. I am however, motivated and my daily struggles are less intimidating when I apply my desperate willpower to them. I strive to be a better and more excellent version of me for Me first and foremost.

Two, I have realized that I am unfulfilled romantically, spiritually and intimately without a non Dominant partner, something i havent experienced in almost a decade. The reason I'm seeking a Domme is not only to potentially capture a feeling of comfort and security, ultimately love perhaps, but to help provide guidance in these areas where I have grown complacent, blind and uncertain.

I want to be clear, there's so much work I'm doing and I'm proud of my efforts, but I crave the satisfaction of knowing the work is not just for me but for someone I hold to the highest and purest esteem. I'm looking for someone to place on this mental pedestal I've created, someone who understands that I want to open up to them emotionally and physically and is willing to help me find the best ways to do that.

I have been called stoic and emotionless in my attempts to find someone to fit into my world which couldnt be farther from the truth, I'm inherently a very emotional person. I very much fear opening up and having my inner feelings used against me. I have invested time and energy and presence in the wrong places, not with the wrong people, but in the wrong places. I have come to accept that I will not be for everyone and forcing myself to try is not healthy. It's OK for me to say no. Still, I have reflected on my fluidity and have determined that my desire to change for my partner isn't always a bad thing. Sometimes it can be me embracing new ways of thinking and behaving.

I've had several priceless interactions and forays into not only relationships but dynamics over the past year, all of which have been online, all of which have been initiated by me. I thought for a long time that women who would be attracted to me would want me to be Dominant as this has been my literal in person experience, primarily due to the way I look and sound. I once had decided I was a switch, ultimately that's not the case. I believe I am a submissive with a strong preference for service in any manner though I excell at being a service top. I enjoy using my physical strength to please my partner through acts of service as well. I love being domestic, I really love providing a comfortable and safe enviroment for my partner to flourish. I enjoy serving my partner sexually as well as logistically. I am a very pragmatic individual and I love nothing more than being a problem solver for my partner.

To me, it's sort of like chivalry. I want you on this pedestal not as an object or ideal but as a focus for my admiration and an inspiration.

Ultimately I'm looking to begin a dynamic slowly but surely. I would like to be met with a caring and contemplative energy so that my best qualities can come forward. I would like to be taught how best to support you in your endeavors while being encouraged to express the same. I would like to be encouraged as I develop my physical health and even more so as I continue working on my emotional health (though I consider myself very capable in that realm after much therapy and work). My ideal scenario involves a relationship evolving from this dynamic but I understand the boundaries that would need to be discussed and maintained. If I was in a relationship with my Domme a 24/7 dynamic appeals to me with some elements of TPE and FLR.

I would very much prefer to discuss the more intimate aspects of kink and sexuality in private but you as my prospective Domme should know that my main kink is pleasure and service. It's likely I can become interested in something that you enjoy if I am inexperienced, if I am not interested I will politely communicate so and I would never judge (we don't kinkshame).

Please don't hesitate to reach out, I have tried very diligently to put all of this into writing in a way that conveys the respect and attention I hope to be able to cultivate. On that note, even if you don't have a particular interest in me, but could provide some subjective and thoughtful insite I would certainly welcome that also. The one thing I feel this post lacks is an indication of my humorous side, maybe you can share yours?

I am flexible on the age and gender identity of my Domme, but I very much only experience attraction to feminine individuals. Please don't take this as an indication of bigotry, femininity extends beyond physical presence. If this offends, please forgive me and trust that I meant no harm and simply explained my position poorly. I pride myself on being well read and well spoken if not well educated but I am inherently teachable and view every disagreement as a chance to grow.

Thank you so much for your time. Please know it's important to me that you read this even if I'm not for you, I worked hard putting thoughts to words as anyone can appreciate.

Some fun things about me:

I am an excellent cook

I am an avid outdoorsman

I love motorcycles and am a competent mechanic

I love ancient history, and collect historical books

I love music, I listen to everything at least once

Some ways to instantly endear me to you:

Voice notes

Sharing your favorite music

Asking me about my passions and hobbies or telling me about yours in wonderful detail

Stimulate me intellectually, poems, art, science facts, mechanical details, medical terminology, anything!

Yours, i